PAIN
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Pain-It's a strong word, it can be caused by a lot of things. Parents, friends, teachers, family, doctors, lovers, anything, and anyone. Pain comes in a lot of different ways, mentally, or physically. You never know sometimes, it can be one or the other, it can be both, at the same time, so overwhelming. It can be, death, fails, break ups, losses of any sort, eventually it all builds up. It gets to be so much, some people can't always handle it, they take the easy way out, and they end it. But only because they're never truly trying to fight back, fight the urge to drop it all and end who you are. You get this feeling in your chest, like a heavy weight has dropped on you, not knowing what to do. What are your options? How can you contain it? You can barley breathe, let alone think. You feel alone, ashamed, afraid, hopeless, worried, all these emotions piling on top of each other. Deep breathes, one after the other, calming yourself with the simple things. The things that used to make you laugh, live, and love. But they're all just thoughts now, you can't grasp them anymore. They're just images of happiness replaying over and over in your head, torturing you, reminding you of what you've lost. Reminding you of what you left behind, the things you'll never have again. In a world of pain the doctors, family, friends, lovers, teachers, parents, they all feel like your enemies, but in reality they're trying to help you, help dig you out of that hole you've fallen into. The hole that continues to tell you, you're worthless, pathetic, "different", the hole that continues to tell you that you don't belong. That hole, is your mind, your mind telling you those things, because you've already lost who you are. When you allow yourself to get that far, there will be no saving.
