Harry's POV
Fine. I'm coming over
I read the text over again
She is coming
I didn't think she would agree, but I'm happy she did
I really had to explain all this to her
This was just a misunderstanding!!
I am not using her, Rachel meant more to me than that, I really liked her, I could never hurt her, ever.
But I guess this was all kinda my fault, because i'm a big dickhead who had to act all cool. fuck me.
I had told the guys that I was just playing around with her, I had reputation with them, I didn't want them to think I am some sort of a weak piece of shit, and since they looked up to me, I had to tell them it wasn't serious
In fact I wasn't the boy who they thought I was, I had lied so much to them
Rachel was the second girl I slept with, the first one was my girlfriend, but we only lasted for one year, but the guys thought I had slept with plenty other girls, because I told them so.
I don't know why I started this whole lying situtation, why did I have to act so cool, because of all of that Rachel now hates me and thinks I was using her
I heard the doorbell ring
I walked torwards the door and opened it, it was Rachel, she looked so sad, her face was all red an puffy from the crying, it broke my heart, I made her feel like that, I am such a jerk
She walked inside and torwards the sofa, but she just stood next to it
"Ok, now I'm here, so explain" she said angrily
I took a deep breath and then started talking
"Rachel, what the girls heard at Johnny's is all right, the boys said that"
I saw the words broke her, she was fighting back the tears
"But it isn't what it looks like, but yeah, I told the guys I was just playing around and it didn't mean anything"
"Do you like hurting people Harry?" she asked me
"No, Rachel let me finish"
A saw a tear stream down her chin
"Yes I told the boys that, but it was only because they look up to me in a way, and I didnt want them to think that I was some sort of a weak lovesick puppy, they are the only mates I have so I have lied to them alot, they don't know the real me, the real me isn't somesort of an jerk who plays around with tons of girls and then ditches them, that's not it, I have only slept with two girls Rachel, and you are one of them"
Her face looked surprised by my words and she looked my in the eyes
"How do I know you're not just lying Harry"
"You just have to trust me Rachel, I really care about you and I don't want to loose you"
"I really like you too Harry but you hurt me, really bad, and even though we haven't known each other for long it still really sucked, to hear that the boy you liked was just using you, that really hurt" she said to me and I saw few more tears fall from her eyes
I am such an idiot! I really hurt her, even though that was not what I intended
"Rachel I know, but can you forgive me, I just want everything to be ok between us"
"I don't know Harry, how do I really know you are not just lying to me now, and this is all just a part of your stupid little act"
"Goddamnit Rachel it isn't like that! I wouldn't be here begging you to forgive me if I was just using you since I already got in your pants!" I said rather angrily
