This is a wasteland.

Secrets and loneliness

We pulled up to a kinda big house, it was really beautiful! I could not help getting a bit jealous..
- Wow this house is ginormous I said with wide eyes.
- We are six people living here you know.. Rocky giggled at my reaction.
- Yeah I forgot.. I followed them in to the house and I heard voices from the kitchen .

Rocky started walking in to the kitchen with Em's hand in his, I kept following them and didn't say a word.
- Hi guys! Were are Molly? Riker sounded disappointed. I giggled a bit behind Rocky.
- I'm right here! I said as I pushed Rocky a side to be seen.
- I didn't see you! He gave me a hug.
- So what are the plans for tonight? Rocky asked his siblings.
- Well Courtney are coming over for dinner so I thought we should have a bbq? Riker asked.
We all nodded in agreement.
- I need to do some shopping, Molly do you wanna come with me? He used his puppy eyes.
- Of course! I gave him a big smile.

As we walked out to the car I bumped in to Ross..
- I'm sorry I didn't look were I was going.. I blushed a bit.
- It's okey! He gave me a smile and I noticed the girl by his side. I nodded shyly towards her.
- So this is Courtney, my girlfriend and Courtney, this is Molly! He introduced us. Riker took my hand an told them that we are going to shop and dragged me to the car.

We just talked about everything and I realized that Riker had really grown on me, I might ever like him more then Rocky.. I was that kind of girl that always hung out with boys, I always felt more comfortable that way.

We walked in the store and Riker took a cart and asked me to hop in and I did, because who doesn't love to get pushed around in a cart?
- Riker? I looked at him.
- What? He was not facing me.
- I just wanted to ask you something.. I trail off.
- Just tell me? It's not like I'm gonna run away when you have all the food? He laughs.
- What did you think off me the first time we meet? I started to blush. He started to think and didn't say much.. I panicked and thought he hates me now omg what have I've done..
- I thought you were cute, and kinda quite but really nice! He beams at me.
I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding in and he looked confused.
- Why do you ask?
- Cause people don't really get me so they usually don't like me.. I shrugg.
- How can I not like you? You're already my best friend! He ruffles my hair and I start giggling.

We just joke around the rest of the shopping and then jumps in his car and heads back to the house, when we arrived everyone was in swimsuits and looked ready to go swim.
- Are you guys joining? Em looked at me.
- Of course we are right Molly? Riker lays his arm around my shoulder and everyone stares and as he whispers in my ear. "just go with it.."
- Yes, wouldn't miss it for the world Rikey! I giggled at my own nickname for him.

I took my bag and went to the bathroom and got changed, as soon as I came out I saw Riker already standing there ready and waiting for me.
- So why and what are we doing to your siblings right now? I raised my eyebrow.
- Ryland thinks you're hot and I know Ross stares at you so just go with it will you? He smirks at me.
- Fine! But if you do something I will punch you! I give him a smirk back.

Next thing I know I'm thrown over his shoulder and he was on his way to the pool, I tried kicking out of his grip but failed.
- Riker put me fucking down!! I yelled
- I can't do that babe! He says with a smirk on his face.
- I'm gonna kill you! Fucking idiot! I was furious..
- Language young lady!! And then I throws me in. And as soon as I reach the surface I see him standing there laughing his pants off. I see this as an opportunity to get my revenge so quick and quiet I jump out off the pool running towards him and pushes him in to the pool. I start laughing and so does everyone else. Riker reaches the surface and looks defeated..

- I'm not even mad, you are a little monster you know that right? He pokes his tongue at me.
- Why do you think I call here that? She is the master of revenge! Rocky says from behind me.
- Is that what that name came from? I didn't know... I laugh at Rocky.

Riker starts the grill after he had changes his close, I had put on a big hoodie and a pair of shorts and sat along with him at the grill talking. We sat there for a while and laugh as everybody approaches us..

- Can we ask you something? Rocky's eyeing me and Riker.
- What do you want? Riker smiles at his brother.
- Are you two a thing or what is happening? Rydel looks at us and we burst out laughing and they still look very confused.
- Not really, she is like a little sister bro.. We just messing around with you! Riker says between laughs
- I don't even know what to say.. You two could be a cute couple.. Rocky smirks.
- I'm a master of pranks remember? And I've told you and Em that I don't want a relationship and never will! And with that I walked away. I needed to smoke, hate this shit because I could never control my temper.

I couldn't be there right now, I know they want my best and everything but I can't be with anyone right now or never. I sat down at the pavement and took up a cigarette and lit it, I heard someone joining me and I saw Ross sitting next to me..

- Do you need another smoke? I sounded more harsh then I intended.
- I would love one, but I wanted to check up on you also.. He gave me a smile.
- What about your girlfriend? I asked as I gave him a cigarette.
- I don't know, she's probably texting some other guy.. He shrugged
- Fucking bitch I muttered..
- What? He looked surprised at my response.
- Nobody deserve that, and if she's doing that to you she's a fucking bitch.. I answered simply.
- I guess he shrugged.
- It's not my problem sorry, I just don't like people that treat others like crap. I inhale the smoke.
- Molly!? Riker shouted.
- I'm here! I answered.

He came up to us and sat down by my side.
- Are you ok? He looked worried.
- Yeah I needed some air but everything is fine! I rested my head against his shoulder.
- Dinners ready so come on guys! He stood up and dragged us off the ground and we walked inside.

After dinner Courtney and Ross went outside as everyone else were inside and talking about witch movie we were gonna watch, suddenly Courtney storms in to the kitchen and just pushes her way through the crowded kitchen and I hear the front door close and Ross walks in.

- What happened? I was the first that spoke up.
- I dumped here cause you were right! He gave me a week smile.
- I'm sorry.. I didn't really mean that you should do it right now but anyway... I giggled.
- It needed to be done soooooo... What movie are we gonna watch? Ross looked at his siblings.

We sat down in the living room and I just sat there and started looking at my phone and as a sign it rang and I stood up to answer it. It was my stepmom and she was drunk..

"You are not the only one okey? But you need to stop fucking drunk dail me every fucking day!" "No I don't give a shit what you think, you are NOT my mother and we never need to speak again!" "Fine sue me or whatever, It will never work!!" "Yeah fuck you to u freaking whore!!"

I made my way back to the living room where everybody sat quiet.. Em looked at me and I felt the tears running down my cheeks.
- What did she say this time? Em stands up giving me a hug.
- That he never wanted me anyways, and that she wanted his shit.. Fuck that whore. I said simply.
Em just hugged me and didn't say anything..
- Rocky can you drive me home now? I really don't feel like this anymore..
- I can drive you! Riker says as he stands up.
- Thank you, I'm just gonna gather my things and then we'll go....