Only Lies

How's Alicia?

It was a nice Sunday in January and I was walking with Des down to Keith's house to meet the boys. Out if no where it started hailing and pouring. Bizarre! we met up with the boys out if breath and wet. (Haha....sorry🙈)
"She has a right to know." Are the words I remember as the first words coming out if Keith's mouth. Cody reluctantly hands over his phone to Keith and my mind starts to panic. Do they mean me. Oh my god what happened. It dawns on me that Roy isn't there.
"Here" Keith hands me a phone. Roy's Facebook page pops up. Keith's takes the phone then gives it back to me. My heart broke. I felt dead. I felt worthless. I needed to find another reason to keep from climbing on to a house and lunging my self over the edge. At the top of the screen it said Alicia Lua next to a picture. It wasn't of her but had a white back round with red words on it. Below that were messages from Roy to her.
Roy: hey
Alicia: hey
R: so do you still like me
A: yeah
R: could I have another chance?
A: of course.

I know it's not like it's that big if a deal but if the only thing you ever did with your boyfriend was peck each others lips every now and then, then this would hurt you too.
"Hey kitty we have to go" Des says and shows me that her mom called. I nod but before we leave I do something I regret.

Roy: hey this is Roy's girlfriend kitty idk what's going on but sorry.

She saw the message but didn't respond. I left feeling broken, confused, but most of all hatred. Not for Roy but myself.
I wasn't a good girlfriend. I told myself for hours. When me and Roy got together we would right little notes to each other so I wrote a note that night.
'''I'm sorry for being a bad girlfriend. I'm sorry that you had to know me. I'm sorry for being so jealous of you and Tia. I'm sorry. You don't have to forgive me but just know I'm sorry
Love kitty '''

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When lunch rolled around on the day if January 13th I was nervous. I acted like a complete idiot. I had handed my friend Sammy the letter to give to Roy in the morning. I sat down at our table and glanced over at Roy. He looked at me as If to ask if I was okay. I turned back to Tia who was now sitting next to me and smiled. When I'm nervous I smile when I hate life I smile. It's what I do. Roy sat down across the table from me. Sammy on my left, Tia on my right. Then It dawns on me.
"He doesn't know I know." I whisper in both the girls ear. I try to think if a subtle way to bring it up, but then rage fills me and I spite myself and everyone sitting around me. I look directly at him, take a deep breath and take a step into the world of drama.
"So how's Alicia?" I ask so bluntly. He looks startled, as if I had slapped him or told on of his family's deepest darkest secrets. He got himself together and try to pull off his being surprised as chewing. He swallowed with a deep gulp and spoke calm as the birds fly on a nice spring morning.
"Now let me explain. "
"Okay"
"It was my cousin."
My eyes roll in horror. I almost feel sorry for this boy. He is able to lie to my face, cheat on me, and then when confronted, lie again. He looked straight into my eyes and I let the subject go...for the rest of lunch that is. His cousin had terrorized Tia Keith and I for about two hours one night almost ruining our friendship with Roy. We had thought it was him and when we all realized it wasn't I felt pretty bad thinking Roy could do something like this. Now I know he is capable of a lot more than I thought he was. The last period of the day came to an end and I rushed out of the school, Tia on my tail. We meet up with Sammy Ricky and Roy. I walk up to Roy.
"So the messages from your account telling Keith and Tia ABOUT Alicia and how you KNEW you were cheating on me were your cousin?" I ask accusingly. He nods. Then I remember Casey saying that Roy had told her that he was going to break up with me at the dance last Friday. I decide to question how much truth was to that.
"So what Casey told me about you wanting to break up with me...." I don't get to finish my Sentence.
"Now that was true. " He says nonchalantly.
"So we are breaking up?" I ask wanting him to say no more than yes but not wanting to actually be with him anymore. Everyone else had gotten on their bus now and we were the only ones walking to our bus. His was right next to mine so just before we got separated, to our buses that is.
"Yep" you could hear the annoyance in his voice.
"Finally!" I said a little louder than I intended to.
When I get home I look at my calendar, January 13 2016 now burned into my brain ever so vividly. And it was then and only then that realized that my heart truly was broken.