I Can't Believe this (BXB)

Chapter 12: back to that choking stuff

I HAVE A PUSH UO TEST TOMORROW! I CAN'T EVEN DO 1 PUSH UP :( WISH ME LUCK, TOMORROW IS GONNA BE A SUCKY FRIDAY.

Chapter 12: Back to that Choking Stuff

--Arlo's POV--

"Arlo," A soft voice woke me up, a hand was on my shoulder rocking me side-to-side. I squinted my eyes against the light on in the room and looked up to find JC staring down at me. "What?" My voice was groggy from sleep and crying. I didn't forget what happened last night. I wasn't drunk, so why would I? "Wake up sweetie, it's Monday." He smiled happily and got up from the bed. "What are you?" I asked scrunching my nose up in disgust. He rose an eye brow, "pardon me?" He looked amused. Ok, since when has JC ever said "Pardon Me"? "I'm JC Arlo, stop giving me that look. I'm not a carbon clone, or alien." He rolled his eyes. "I only asked what are you because it's freaking five a.m. And you're all happy and shit." I grunted sitting up and rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand.

"What a nice way to put it Arlo. I'm all "happy and shit". Nice." He chuckled and walked into the bathroom. I laid back down closing my eyes, but not falling asleep. I didn't want to think about my mom. I didn't want to think about my dad. I didn't want to think at all. I wanted everything to stop. But it doesn't work like that does it? The world isn't going to just stop for me; for one insignificant little human boy with parent problems.

I'm here being all mopey, when people out there have it worse then me. But I have problems to. They might not be that big, but they still are problems-they are if they hurt me. And they do. A lot.

I turned on my side and squeezed my eyes shut tightly. Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about-

FUCK! I thought about it. I sighed and got up lazily, and walked toward my dresser-thing. I got out clothes I'd wear today, my eyes half open.

I pulled out black skinny jeans, and gray long sleeved shirt that had three buttons. I threw them on my bed and pulled out a pair of teal vans with black laces. It's all about the laces baby. "JC hurry up! Fish need water to you know!" I pounded on the bathroom door.

"Are you calling yourself a fish?" He yelled, though, his voice was muffled by the water. "Damn straight!" I yelled back and heard him laugh.

"Hey, keep it down will ya'!" Someone yelled pounding their fist on the door three times before walking away.

I walked back to my bed and grabbed my cell phone and quickly sent a text message to Grace. I haven't talked to her in a while.

(hey Arlo, I'm in class. I can't really talk, but I promise to text you later babes! Tell everyone I said hi!)

I read her respond twice feeling a little sad. I missed Grace. JC walked out of the bathroom, steam coming out with him making him look like an angel. He was clutching a white towel around his waist, his free hand in his hair shaking out the water. He looked beautiful.

I set my phone down and walked over to him. His eyes followed me as I approached him. I wrapped my arms around his torso, my cheek pressing against his chest, and I sighed. I breathed in his scent which was so good. He smelled if soap and vanilla coffee. Did I mention that I love vanilla coffee? It was he only coffee I would cry ally drink. He chuckled and I felt the vibration through his chest. "I love you so much JC." I told him seriously hoping he'd understand just how much he means to me. I don't even entirely understand how much me means to me, this boy was just that amazing. "I love you to Arlo," he wrapped the hand that was shaking out his hair around my waist. I pushed him of gently. "I need to freshen up now." I smiled and walked past him into the bathroom shutting the door behind me.

Inside, the bathroom was still steamy and hot from JC's shower. The mirror was clouded with fog, so I couldn't see my reflection even when I tried rubbing it off with a towel; It wouldn't clear all the way. I brushed my teeth while writing random things onto the foggy mirror. I drew random-inappropriate-things. Wink wink.

I finished brushing my teeth and quickly washed my face. I remember once in Junior year I was running late for school, so I tried brushing my teeth while brushing my hair. Didn't work out so great. My hair looked weird, and I almost choked on toothpaste. Again with the choking, I smirked, remembering Fernando and I last year in twelfth grade. Good times, good times. Too bad he's all... Stupid now. He's all serious and no fun.

I hurried out if the bathroom, JC was munching on a granola bar. We had a mini fridge in the dorm and put random stuff into it. Why not?

I threw my shirt on and danced into my skinny jeans. No one could just simply slide skinny jeans on you know? I always had to wriggle into them or force them on. I felt JC's eyes on me as I dressed and put my shoes on. "Take a picture JC, it lasts longer." I sighed tying my laces.

In the corner of my eye a flash went off. I looked at my boyfriend (I still love saying that) too see that he had his phone in his hand. He grinned and winked at me. "You said to take a picture." He reminded me and looked down at his phone. "I'm glad I did, you're always so amazingly gorgeous." He muttered, I was probably not supposed to hear that, but he said it unintentionally loud. Or maybe I just have really good hearing? "Do you want something to eat?" He asked me getting up from his bed. "No I'm fine." I told him shrugging my shoulders. "Let me re-fraze that," He started, "You're having something to eat." I didn't argue with him even though I wasn't really hungry.

Who am I kidding? I haven't eaten for almost eight hours! Would that be considered fasting? JC grabbed a banana, a granola bar, and a water bottle with orange juice in it, from the fridge. He handed it to me and I took it thanking him. "As soon as you're done we're leaving." He sat down on the floor in front of me, while I sat on my bed. "Are you ok?" He softly asked me his eyes looking slightly worried. "Hmm?" I didn't hear him at first, but then his words sunk into my brain. "Oh, yeah. I'm all right." I lied. I didn't like lying to him, but I didn't want to burden him with my problems. He got up and embraced me in a hug without saying anything and I hugged him back. Sometimes, all you needed was a hug. "You're amazing." I declared while taking a bite of my banana. "Who exactly are you saying that to? The banana or me?" JC chuckled. "The banana of course," I rolled my eyes like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "You're beyond amazing! No word can describe you JC." I nodded and took another bite if my banana childishly.

He smiled. I loved his smile smile so much. I loved how one corner of his mouth would go up before the other. I loved him in general. "I feel so sappy." I blurted out accidentally. "First you were a potato, and now you're sap." JC shook his head in amusement.

"You remember that?"

"How could I forget?"

I stared at him not saying anything.

"That's not a bad thing to you is it?"

"No of course not JC! I'm just surprised you remember, you didn't exactly like me then, remember."

I finished my food, gulping down my orange juice, and nearly dying while eating my granola bar. Stupid Special K protein bar. "Off to our first day if classes." JC smiled, opening the door to our dorm for me. To me, it felt like it was going to be "off to the first day in hell".