The Shield's Love For Each Other (Ambreigns) (Book Completed)

The Truth

Roman stood there looking at Dean not sure to believe him or not. So much going thru his head as he heard everything Dean was saying. He wasn't going to leave Dean since he came back. He looked into Dean's eyes and wanted to see what was going thru them. Could he really mean it or just confused, just as he was about to find out he closes his eyes.

Dean knew Roman was trying to looked into his eyes and closes them. He wanted Roman to leave, it was for the best. He wanted him gone just like Seth and how he tell Roman that every time he see his face he sees Seth also? How does he tell Roman that every time he hears his voice he hears Seth's also. He is so scared and thinks of Seth so he slides inside of his blankets and hides away.

Dean sometimes he wish was invisible and could disappear. He wish he sometimes he never got involved with Roman or Seth, he thought for a minute and the took it back. Roman was who he loved but right now he needed time to think what he truly wanted. He wanted to make sure that when he saw Roman again he didn't see Seth also.

"Dean I'm not leaving I want to know what's really wrong? I want the truth Dean." Roman looks at him concern.

Great Dean thought he wanted another lie. "Fine! You want the truth Rome, here it is." He was really gonna lose for sure. "I regret it all Roman (looks at him) all of this, and you have to face this now. You need to fucking move on with your damn life. Stop standing there and feeling sorry for me. I know what kind of worthless, piece of shit I am." Dean looks at Roman with hurtful eyes.

Roman sits next to Dean and looks into his eyes. " We're back to this again really? Don't say that Dean, you don't regret none of this. Your not worthless piece of shit. I told you to not think like that, with you (looks in his his) you never know what your going get, but that makes you more intriguing. Each and every moment that we spend together. It doesn't matter when, it matters that were together. I don't feel sorry for you."

Dean looks at him and knew he was gonna hurt him and had to. "I said I'm over you and that we're thru. So you should just move on, like I said I don't need you and don't want you, and.....and I don't love you anymore. Like I said you deserve a man who, will give you all he has. Just to make you his whole world, that just something I could never do.

Roman sat there tears running down his face, and of course Dean laid there lying. He was in love with this man, but he knew he cant show Roman that he was serious, but not crying and looks serious and he will leave.

"That's just like you to confuse me, but Dean you should know by now that you'll never lose me and I know you never like to show affection, but when you. I know it's all at once, and then it is gone. When you do that Dean I'm stunned and breathless, and amazed by that." Roman wipes his eyes, "I deserve you, and you deserve me, and you giving me everything and you gave me your world. I'm not leaving you behind."

Dean got furious and pushed Romans hands away and him off the bed. "I said if your don't leave now I know I'll hurt you, cause love won't change the man, I know I am. I love you enough to let you go cause I'm never gonna be the best or lovable or be what you want me to be Roman. So- just fucking leave this broken man." He cried and upset and slides back under the blanket and hides.

Roman stops Dean before he can fully go under. "I'm not leaving, I don't care what you say or put me thru right now. (he reaches for Dean's hand) Dean hold on tight to me, and enjoy the the ride that our life is bringing us. (life's his face to see see his eyes) Dean look into my eyes and you will see forever. We'll make it together baby boy. I'm not going anywhere and you may be broken, but I'm just the man to bring to back together." Roman stares into his baby blue eyes.

Dean looks at Roman and doesn't say anything. He had everything he started out with. His pride, he job, he reason to live, and his best friends, and Roman. Now all he has is his job and Roman, what's that? How can he have come from the top of the world and end at the bottom and still have the one thing he wanted and still push that away? He doesn't even know now to even go back to a whole man he use to be and yet how can he keep a man like Roman?