Love isn't always easy

Chapter 14 - Lying and Denying

I thought my dad would kill me because he had never even thought about me having a boyfriend. I guess that's my fault because I never talk with my parents about boys and love, it's just too weird. I was wrong though, he wasn't mad at all, he was shocked and we didn't really talk about it because he sent me to Louis to give him company since I had left him alone in his room. He did tell me that he was disappointed at me which he didn't much explain.

And so I went to Louis as my dad had told me to. I crossed my arms and directly asked him: "Why were you listening?"

"What me?" He laughed. Before he could continue I stopped him:

"Oh please don't pretend you're stupid."

"Thank you Ashley." He smiled.

"What?" I asked confused and a little annoyed.

"You said I wasn't stupid, that's a compliment. And usually it's polite for people to thank the person that has just given you a compliment."

"I wasn't trying to give you a compliment! I don't have time for this." I was angry and so I turned around but Louis' words stopped me:

"But your father said you have to stay with me." I turned around again and he looked at the floor for a second.

"See, you were east dropping." I smiled. I knew now he would have to admit it.

"Yes, I was." He said with a smirk on his face. Wait what? He smirked? Louis and I have never talked to each other like that. I felt this tension between us that was really uncomfortable and I really didn't like it. "Ash, tell me," He continued a little more seriously, "why'd you lie to Will?" Why was he asking me that?

"Lie? Umm... I didn't lie to him." I knew I sounded anything but convincing.

"There you go, you're lying again." I felt like a coward. This was Louis. I still don't know how he always saw right through me.

"Why do you even care?" I asked. He stepped closer making me nervous.

"You said we didn't matter." He almost whispered and I was speechless. "I know that's not true. I know you." As he was saying all of those things I could hardly concentrate. I was heavily breathing because he was so close to me and I couldn't manage to say a word. He was right, I did lie to Will and we both knew that. It was wrong of me to do that. For a moment I was lost in my thoughts. "Ashley?" Louis asked.

"Yes?"

"Look at me, look into my eyes and tell me, if you can honestly say you love him?"

"I... umm, I." I tried you to lie because that would be fair to Will but I couldn't. I was able to lie to Will about Louis but not the other way around. Isn't it ironic?

"I knew it. Silence says it all Ashley." I loved it when he said my name and he was now even closer to me.

In that moment I just wanted to kiss him. I couldn't pretend anymore. I knew, I felt he cared about me. And I just wanted to kiss him so badly. I forgot about everything. He had that affection over me. I couldn't deny my feelings for him. He put his hand on my cheek and we were about to kiss when my phone rang. I didn't know whether to be happy or sad. Will was calling me.

"Will?" I answered and sadly looked at Louis. He turned away from me.

"I'm outside your room, come here."

"Oh my god what's wrong with you?" I was so shocked I didn't even know what to think.

"Just come." I hung up and went to my room to open the window because in front of it Will was waiting for me.

"What are you doing here Will?" I asked and climbed on the window sill.

"I wanted to know how things went with your dad and so I came back to check up on you."

"You could've just called."

"You're right I'm sorry." He wanted to kiss me but I hugged him.

"You should go before my dad sees you." I hated saying that to Will, I hated the whole situation.

"Okay." He sighed. "Bye." He gave me a quick peck kiss and left.

I closed the window and I had to take a deep breath. I was now completely aware that I had almost kissed Louis, meaning I had almost cheated on my boyfriend. That wasn't right, that wasn't me. If Will hadn't called and stopped us I would've made such a big mistake.

"I don't understand you." I heard Louis' voice. I turned around and spotted him with his arms crossed leaning against the door.

"Louis, I can't talk right now, please." I wasn't ready to talk about everything because it had all happened too fast and I didn't even have time to think it over.

"Just tell me, why do you have to do this?" He asked a little angry.

"Do what?"

"You keep running away from everything!" Now he made me angry.

"You think it's easy for me? Well guess what? It's not!" I was angry but something else than that was burning in me.

"Our actions are made upon our choices. It seems to me you keep escaping because instead of solving your problems, you're lying to everyone and sometimes I think you're lying to yourself too!" His words hurt me.

"You don't understand, just go!" I yelled at him a little. He shook his head, leaving in silence.

I closed the door behind him and threw myself on my bed. A tear came running down and I stopped it by covering my face with my hands.

Everything I did was somehow wrong. I shouldn't have been doing this to Will. It's crazy how Louis was here not even for a whole day and my feelings have already changed. I knew I would have to forget about Louis but he was making it so much harder for me, considering that he was going to be with me 24/7 for the next two weeks. I couldn't deny I didn't feel the same way for Will and it wasn't fair of me.

Louis was right. I wasn't sure what I was goingto do but I had to do something. I had to solve this mess I made myself.