Kiss Me Deadly Peter Pan

Chapter 26: Past The Breaking Point

"Yeah go on, I'm listening" I say tiredly and glare at him. What does he want?!

"You did a good job today and-"

"Thanks now get out now" I say tired and face my back to him. I don't want to listen.

He sighs and sits on the edge of the bed. Oh my god, does he not get the meaning of GET OUT?!

"Look...I........"

I wait for him to say more...well? ...is he going to say something? ...huh? I slowly turn by body around and take the pillow away from my face. I stare at him as he is staring right at the wall. I slowly rise up into a sitting position. My hands touch the smooth white bedsheets and I don't take my eyes off him. He is deep in thought though I cannot read what he is thinking at all, his face is expressionless.

"Well? ...are you going to say something?" I ask him.

I see his eyes move slightly and now on me, he turns to face me. I look down and notice he is now staring at the red stain on the bed quilt, my blood from when he stitched my wounds.

"What?" I whisper. He looks up at me again. This silence is killing me. His face...it's no longer the phyco face but rather the race of insecurity that Iv never seen before.

"Are, are you alright?" He whispers so quietly that I could just make out what he had said. My eyes widen and surprise hits me. I blink twice and sigh slightly.

"Well...no actually, no I'm not alright" and for once I'm honest with him. He doesn't say anything but instead gets up off the bed and walks slowly over to me. I back away slightly and he freezes.

"...are you afraid of me?" His voice comes out sort of insecure and vulnerable. What is going on? Am I talking to the same guy? What is this? Though for some reason I can't take my eyes away from him. Am I afraid of him? ...no, I'm just...confused and, I don't know. Hurt?

"no" I say. "But, what you did? You humiliated me..."

He continues to walk forward and sits on the bed next to me as I'm sitting up. My breathing speeds up as he is close to me. I become nervous and uneasy. My mouth then forms a frown as he looks at me.

"...what? Your not going to say anything? So your just going to give me the silent treatment?" I raise my voice this time.

"Do you honestly care what those filthy runts think of you?" He asks.

"No I don't but that's not the point, you humiliated me infront of myself! You made me believe you actually......" I stop, I can't say anymore.

"That I actually what??" He snaps slightly.

I hesitate to say it. No, I can't. I won't waist my breath on it.

"You know what? Just forget it okay!" I shout and get up off the bed frustrated and annoyed, heading to the door. He grabs my arm, stopping me from walking any further.

"Your not going out there" he says.

I squint my eyes at him and give him a filthy look. He's got to be kidding me right?! I yank my arm away from him and stand up straight while crossing my arms.

"You...your kidding me now right??" I give a sarcastic pissed off laugh.

"No" he replies and imitates me by folding his arms.

"You think this is all a game? To disrespect me and then act like nothing happened?" I take a step forward and he does not move. He raises his eyebrows. OH HE DID NOT JUST DO THAT RIGHT NOW!

"Disrespect you, ah?" He smirks. I take another step forward. I want to punch him right in the jaw.

"You cannot expect me to talk nicely with you after you made me work after I suffered a mauling from mermaids and plus a beating from those pricks which could have escalated to something else by the way if you had continued to walk away....though that's not the reason why you stopped them. You don't care at all about me and you just wanted to prove a point to your buddies"

"Prove a point to my so called buddies?" He says as his smile slowly fades. Unbelievable. I shake my head. "I don't even know what your-"

"Yeah damn right and I know what you are" I say on the verge of tears. Tear? Why do I feel like crying? It's not like my opinions have mattered to anyone, it's not like I'v ever been heard.

"What am I exactly?" He says now curious.

"Your a weak coward! You are the most vial person I have ever met, you are worse than Sam, you think everything is a game and you don't care about anyone else but your self, you place your self higher Than everybody else but in reality you are lower! You are weaker! You are the person that I hate, ohh you have no idea how much I extremely fucking hate you!" I scream without taking a breath. I breath furiously and my lungs are working hard to get my oxygen back. He uncrosses his arms and his smile fades into a dark glare.

"Wow that was awfully rude...Well now I can say the same thing about you...what a shame, your no longer cute-"

"Great because I honestly don't care anymore, I used to believe in you, in Neverland, believed in magic and fairies....but now....it's not even in my mind anymore, I don't believe in anything!, I don't even know what I ever saw in you, I will never ever, NEVER care about you AGAIN!! And Peter Pan? ....well...that's now a myth to me...all just story books by the person delusional enough to make it up! I hope you do well with your lost boys, your buddies, I hope you are satisfied with your pathetic life of hurting others" I angrily shout and now the tears are streaming down my face. He lets go of my wrist and I don't even want to look at his face. I open the door and slam it shut behind me. Not looking back. I pace through the forest with my hands in my pockets. My whole body feels like it weighs a thousand bricks and I just want to go. I don't want to live anymore. I'm sick of everything! I angrily punch a tree and it leaves bloody marks on my knuckles. More tears stream down and I lean my forehead against the tree. He needed to hear that. Everyone needs to hear that. I am sick and tired of the one to be a punching bag by everyone's problems! It's not my fucking fault that mother died! It's not my fault that suzie died! It's not my damn fault that dad is fucked up! Maybe mother was just as fucked up. Maybe I'm dreaming right now and I'm in a mental institution, in a locked room hurting myself. I stare at the scars on my wrist and get that urge again. I hate everyone. I hate father. I hate Sam. I hate pan. I hate mother. I hate Suzie.

A roar of thunder arrives and the Dark of the night flashes a bright light for a second then disappears. I scream in fright but the soft rain calms me down. More lightning hits and the rain pours down heavily. I cover my ears as the thunder gives a continuous threatening roar. What is happening? I start to shiver and I run through the forest quickly, jumping over the hurdles of the fallen branches and the leaves in my way. Lightning strikes again and without seeing it, I trip over something, a snake or a tree branch of some sort. I my face slumps hard as it comes in contact with the mud on the eerie grounds of Neverland.

Just then everything goes blank.

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Authors Note:
Well...that was intense o_O
Rachel went all guns blazing in this chapter but it was to be expected. Hopefully she's alright! Find out in the next chapter. Don't forget to vote and comment. Thanks everyone!
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