Paano na Kaya [Vice-Karylle-Denise Love Triangle]

Chapter 23 - Beautiful Goodbye

Pagtapos ng show ay deretso ng umuwi si Vice. Dumeretso siya agad sa kwarto nya, at pagpasok ay agad bumungad ang isang envelope na nakalagay sa gitna ng kama nya. Isang white long mailing envelope ito na may nakasulat na:

"To: Vice

From: D" sa likod. 

Pagkita ni Vice dito ay agad siyang umupo sa kama, tinanggal sa kaliwang balikat niya ang hoodie nyang nakapatong dito, nagtanggal ng sapatos at sinimulan ng basahin ang liham.

"To my Vice, 

Hi, I'm going to say what I want to say through a letter so that it's not that awkward. Don't worry, this won't be long. ☺

Before saying goodbye, I just want you to know some things.

Firstly, I want to thank you for making me feel loved even for just a month...wait, no, for 4 months. Isama narin natin yung months na "friends" palang tayo. You really made me feel special and loved. Ngayon lang may nagmahal sakin ng ganto honestly. Yung talagang gagawin lahat para lang makasama ako,mapasaya ako, etc. Thank you very much for keeping me despite all my countless flaws.

Alam kong hindi na tayo okay even before this "cool off". Pinilit lang natin, right? Haha. I'm sorry kung nawalan ako ng time for you, I'm sorry for making you feel that work is more important for me than us, I'm sorry for making you cry, I'm sorry for not being with you, I'm sorry for hurting you...and ugh, I'm sorry for everything. Maybe I just don't really deserve a good man like you, you did everything to make me happy and to be with me, and you don't deserve a woman like me, because I didn't even put much effort for us to workout, and I did prioritize some other things before you. Before us. I'm sorry kung hindi ko napantayan yung effort na binigay mo para satin.

But even though we didn't work out for a long time, atleast, we tried, right? That's what's important, we grew up even more because of each other, and we learned something from our experiences together. 

I talked to the big bosses already, and we've decided to cancel all my projects nalang para makaalis na ako agad dito. I'm giving my career here up and leave our country for good. I want to start a new life in NYC and leave all the sad memories here in the Philippines. I feel so lost right now, and what I need is time to fix myself again. I'm putting myself first naman this time, it's been a long while since I did what I want. For the past years, I've been doing the thing that would make the people happy, siguro naman okay lang kung ngayon, sarili ko naman yung pasasayahin ko.

I hope when I come back, we're already super okay and I hope that Karylle would forgive me soon. Sana maging masaya ka. Sana maging masaya kayo ng bestfriend ko. Hoy! Wag mong paiiyakin yun, ha? Dapat kayo magkakatuluyan. Patunayan mo saking tama yung desisyon kong i-let go ka! Hehe, kwento ha? Add mo ako sa wechat o kaya sa viber. And if you need help for some pasabogs, you can always text or whatever me! ☺ PROMISE me, hindi mo sasaktan si Karylle. She's the one who deserves a MAN like you and you're the one who deserves a woman like her as well. Bilisan mo na, tell her everything. Baka maunahan ka pa! Don't be such a slow horse! 

Let's be serious again. Hmm, I love you that's why I'm letting you go. I want to see and make you feel happy, and even if it's not with me, that's fine. Basta masaya ka, masaya nadin ako. Ganun naman pag totoo mong mahal ang isang tao diba?

I really really learned a lot from you...from us. For a long time, you inspired me, you were the reason of my big smiles, my laughs, my happy and blooming face and my very good performances so once again, thank you very much, my Vice. 

My flight is already tonight, 7pm. I'm looking forward for what I'm about to experience. New life, new home, new friends and all. Wish me luck ha! Wag mo akong kakalimutan. Hindi rin kita kalilimutan. Sounds so madrama, pero totoo naman. I look up to you, Mr. Viceral!