Addicted

Chapter 10

     I decided to stay in my room until Ryan got here. I wasn't really up to talking to the others, I just wanted the bsens here, I didn't care about anyone else.
     All I could hear was the laughter from out in the kitchen, until I heard the doorbell. I bolt out of my room saying "I'll get it, I'll get it!" so that no one else would get it.
     I open the door revealing Ryan, then Buddy of course, Max McCormick and Casey Bailey.
     "Welcome!" I say with a laugh as I allow the boys to come in. Casey brought a dozen beers, and wine. I hope he doesn't think this is a huge party.
     "Now guys." I say turning to the four of them. "Please don't fight with them. Yes they're on the icecaps, but just don't start anything. Try to get along tonight. That's all I'm asking." I say looking at each one of them. They all nod in agreement, as we join Abby.
     I don't have a good feeling about tonight...

It was now Abby, Jacob, Nikita, Ryan Johnston, Joel, Ryan, Buddy, Max, Casey, and myself. Plus three of our neighbours, Kaylee, Bri, and Leah. I have no idea how they got here, I wasn't paying attention. But we were all fairly drunk. That's all I knew.
"Heyyyyyy guys lets play spinn the bottle!!" Johnston says, slurring his words.
Everyone thinks it's a great idea, and sits in a circle.
"Just a tip, I'm only kissing Abby. No one else." Jacob says, still sitting in the circle next to Abby. I don't know why he's doing it if he's just going to kiss her. But they sit there anyway.
So here I was, in the middle of Casey and Ryan. Not Johnston, my Ryan. I mean, Ryan Dzingel. You get the point.
"Alright so who wants to starttttt?!" Nikita asks in his Russian accent.
"Meeeeeeee!" Kaylee says taking the beer bottle and spinning it. It most have spun about 10 times before landing on Max. Thank god.
They kiss, blah blah blah, and now it was Max's turn. He spins the bottle, and it lands on Joel....
"I'm not doing this." Joel says crossing his arms. "I'm not gay."
"Just suck it uppppp, Max says. "No one will even remember this tomorrow. It's a game." Max says going over to Joel. And they kiss.
"Anyways!!!" Nikita says, as he spins the bottle. It lands on Abby.
"I can't. Sorry Nik." She says leaning on Jacob.
"How about at least a kiss on the hand?" He says holding out his hand like a princess.
"Fine." Abby says standing up and kissing his hand.
"Alright, well I guess it's my turn. But whoever I spin it on, can take my turn. I won't kiss them." She says spinning the bottle. It lands on Johnston.
Johnston looks upset that he can't kiss her, but he spins the bottle anyway. And what do you know. It lands on me.
I can feel the stares, as Johnston stands up and makes his way over to me. I wanted to kiss Ryan. I did. But not that Ryan.
I really didn't want to kiss him, but what was the harm?
Ryan kneels down in front of me, and we kiss for a good 5 seconds. I can see his smirk as he walks away, and I can also see the fury in Ryan's eyes.
"Okay um, I guess I'll go." I said as I spin the bottle. It lands on Casey. Oh lord. Another person I'll have to kiss that isn't Ryan.
I only have to turn to kiss him, and he puts two hands on each side of my face as we kiss. It reminds me of Ryan.
Casey was a pretty good kisser though, I wasn't gonna lie about that one.
I pull away from him, and I can sense how mad Ryan is. I don't even have to look at him to know.
Casey spins the bottle and it lands on Bri. They kiss, and it was a lot more intense than our kiss.
Then, Bri spins the bottle and it lands on Ryan. But not Ryan Johnston.
I can feel my face turning red cause I really don't want anyone kissing him. Payback I guess?
Bri makes her way to Ryan, and they kiss. He seemed to have been enjoying it too which is what really hurt me. I didn't look at it, but it lasted 7.4 seconds. Yes I was counting.
After Bri made her way back over to her spot, I got up and started to go to my room.
"Mads where are you going?" Abby asks me following me.
"I just don't feel well. Leave me alone." I say closing the door to my room. I should have went into my bathroom, because there's a door that leads to my room from there. Abby and I each have our own bathroom that leads to our room.
I slam the door, lock it, and then flop on my bed. I cry into my pillow, and release tears that I didn't know I was holding. I just wanted to stay there forever.
I don't know why I was like this. We weren't dating. It was nothing but a friendship. And that's all it would ever be.
After staring out my window for 5 minutes, I heard a knock on the bathroom door.
"Abby I said leave me alone!" I say trying not to let her know I was crying.
"It's not Abby...." I hear, as the door handle turns and I can hear it open. I should have thought about locking that one too.
"Ryan you're the last person I want to see right now. Get out." I say as I point to the door, still not showing him my face.
"Why are you in here?" He asks sitting next to me on the bed. I turn around so all he can see is my back.
"Because... I don't know. I just don't want to be out there with them. Or you in that case." I say with anger in my voice.
"Maddie can I just say something....." He says, with what sounds like sympathy in his voice.
"I don't give a fuck, go for it." I say angrily.
"You're hot as fuck when you're jealous." He says putting two of his hands on my shoulders giving me a chill.
"Shut the fuck up....." I say trying not to smile.
"Okay listen, I know I shouldn't have kissed her but what's the big deal?! It's a game!" He says, but trying not to be too loud so anyone can hear us.
"Because Ryan!" I say turning to face him. I just get jealous of things that aren't even mine!" I nearly shout.
"To be fair, you kissed two guys. TWO! How do you think I feel?" He says to me.
"Probably don't give me a fuck. Just like you don't give a fuck about me either!" I say to him, nearly yelling.
He pulls me close to him as our lips find each other for what feels like the 87th time today. It wasn't a passionate kiss or anything, it was more filled with anger. And lots of it.
I end up on top of him still kissing him, and it's still very intense. My hands find their way up his shirt feeling his abs, and then his lips break away from me.
"Don't give a fuck about you?" He smirks at me.
"Oh shut up..." I say and attach our lips again.
I then stop, stand up, and make my way over to my dresser.
"Wait where are you goingggggg?" She asks sexually frustrated.
I grab the remote from the dresser and hit the power button. I then turn my volume up on 60.
I then make my way back to him, and sit on top of his abdomen and start playing with his hair.
"And what was the point of that?" He asks pointing to the tv.
"So no one can hear us." I say as I connect our lips again.