Nine - This brat
4 years later...
"Time heal all wounds, Presbi." That's what Joey said to me the same day na nalaman niya ang nangyari. "It's going to be okay, everything will be okay. In time, kuya. In time." She repeatedly said just to comfort me and when I calmed down we went to the business meeting she was talking about.
Time heal all wounds. I repeated in my head like a mantra for the past four years.
In time, Presbi. In time.
God. Why it isn't working?
I tried to just solely focus at work and in expanding my businesses while helping dad with ours just to keep myself busy and my mind occupied, just so I could at least move forward.
But who am I kidding? I couldn't barely move a step.
I miss her everyday... I miss her so fucking much it hurts to breathe.
I miss you, Corr...
Not a single day goes by without me thinking of you.
Move forward, Presbi. You need to move forward because she already did.
Damn it. How could I move forward if everytime I close my eyes, I see her beautiful face?
I could still remember how she looks the last time I've seen her, as if it wast just yesterday...
2 years ago...
Seattle Hospital, Washington
It's the tenth visit I made since I get a hold of myself when she left...
Compare from the previous months that I observed her from a far, mas mukhang okay na siya ngayon. She's healing and by the looks of it, she's getting better...
She now smiles and laugh. God, I missed that laugh. I wish I could hear her laugh again...
But I'm too far... She's too far...
And now, she also talks a lot. I could see her hand gestures from here as she talks happily with the patient beside her.
I miss you, Corr... I miss you a lot.
3 months after they left for the States, I built a little confidence to see her. Nilakasan ko ang loob ko and booked a ticket one night.
When I booked the ticket and fixed my hotel, I felt light... Na para bang malaki ang nawala na pasan pasan ko... Then as if realizing something, I feel excited... I'm gonna see her. Finally! I'm going to see her. After months of torture... I'm going to see the love of my life.
Finally.
But when I finally saw her...
Nawala ang kakaunting lakas ng loob ko... All the excitement in my heart and mind immediately vanished.
She looks the same, she's beautiful... Beautiful but pale, beautiful but fragile than ever...
She's still lost.
There's no life in her eyes anymore... She was just staring at nothing as the world around her continue to revolves.
It's your fault, Presbi. This is all your fault... You made her like this.
The first visit, I couldn't take it... I couldn't stand watching her from a far as she suffers. She still scream and become hysterical once in a while, but most of the time she's just blank. Just nothing.
