Colorful (Adopted by Emblem3)

Chapter 10: I don't want the world to see me

Ryder's POV:

We got home and I ran in, searching for Drew.

"Drew!" I ran into his room and hugged him.

"Ryder!" He mocked.

"Shut the hell up. Guess what just happened!"

"Hmm...I think you met 5 seconds of summer and one direction." He said as I started to jump up and down with him.

"Yes!" I almost screamed out.

"Why am I jumping?" Drew asked, still jumping with me.

"I don't know, you tell me." I said as we stopped jumping

I'm just so happy i don't even know anymore.

I went to my room to shower. I noticed someone had finally fixed the bathroom door.

I sat my phone onto the iHome and pressed shuffle as Low by Sleeping with Sirens played. Oh shit, this is my jam.

I undressed and stepped into the shower as the warm water made contact with my body.

"Should I trust my heart or my head?
I wish that I could just replay the thoughts of things I never said
Should I use my heart or my head?
I wish that I could just turn back the time or start over again

But if we're laying it on the line this time
I better say this now

You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
Cause I've tried so hard to convince myself
It's okay that I feel this way
You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
If I can't have you I'd be by myself
Cause you know I need you so
Don't make me
Don't make me
Feel low

So tell me why did it take
Twenty-six years to figure out how to love
Just to throw it all away?
(Throw it all away she said)
Maybe if you'd been a little bit smarter
Maybe if you tried hard enough
I wouldn't question why I shouldn't stay
(why I shouldn't stay)

You expect me to come back around.
Make sure you understand.

You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
Cause I've tried so hard to convince myself
It's okay that I feel this way
You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
If I can't have you I'd be by myself
Cause you know I need you so
Don't make me
Don't make me

Don't make me walk out the door
Don't you throw it away
Don't make me
Don't make me
Cause I'm leaving for good
And I'm not coming back again

(I'm not coming back again)

When I said it was over I meant it
But now I can't let you go
But still I can't accept
That you make me feel so
You make me feel so

You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
Cause I've tried so hard to convince myself
It's okay that I feel this way
You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
If I can't have you I'd be by myself
Cause you know I need you so

You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
Cause I've tried so hard to convince myself
It's okay that I feel this way
You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
If I can't have you I'd be by myself
Cause you know I need you so
You know I need you so" I sang out along with the voice of the oh-so-perfect, Kellin Quinn.

I stepped out and wrapped myself and a towel around my body and went to my wardrobe.

I pulled on some grey sweat pants and a white tank. I quickly blow dried my hair and threw it into a messy bun.

I walked downstairs to grab a water bottle. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle and sat next to Keaton on the couch.

I noticed he was watching 8 Mile. This has to be one of my top 5 favorite movies.

"Eminem is my inspiration." I said as the movie ended.

"Seriously? Why?" Keaton asked.

"Yeah, I mean we both come from broken homes. We both had to work to get to where we are now. He's physically, emotionally, and head strong. It's hard for people to gain either of our trusts. Sometimes, I feel like he's the only who could ever understand, at least a little bit how I feel inside. Like, I know he didn't go through all the shit I went through but, he also went through a hell of a lot. Ya know?"

"I see what you mean." Keaton said.

He put on Step Brothers and we stayed up for hours watching movies, laughing our asses off.

"I'm heading to bed." I said as it was now 4 am.

I went upstairs and went onto the little roof right outside the window beside the bed.

I looked up at the stars and I could've sworn I felt my mom sitting right next to me.

"Look where I am now mom." I said to, what felt like, her.

I got up and went back in and laid down. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.



I woke up to the sound of Wes yelling for me and Keaton to wake up.

I groaned and got up and went to the bathroom. I placed my phone onto the iHome and pressed shuffle as Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls played.

(A/N:Video of Ryder singing this on the side)

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am"

I stepped out and wrapped my body into a towel and blow dried my hair.

I walked to my wardrobe and contemplated what to wear.

I pulled on my red Pierce the Veil t-shirt and my high waisted, light washed, ripped denim shorts.

I left my hair at it's natural curls and pulled on my black neff beanie.

I slid downstairs to meet everybody from my old family.

They all pulled me into a group hug, everyone crying tears of joy.

I gave personal hugs and i noticed someone who I did not recognize.

When I reached Alec, I asked him who it was.

"Ryder, that's your brother." Alec said.

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HOLY SHIT OKAY SORTA INTENSE.

ANYWAYS IDEK IF THE VIDEO WILL COME UP SO WHATEVER AND I KNOW ITS KELLIN QUINN SINGING IT BUT HEY THATS WHAT SHE SOUNDS LIKE

ANYWAYS THERES LIKE 700 READS WHAT?!?

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.

I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO DEDICATE THIS CHAPTER/ MAKE A SHOUTOUT TO @Willow_ WHO HAS DEDICATED HER BOOK 'Strummer' TO ME AWE. ITS SUCH A GREAT BOOK SO GO CHECK IT OUT AND CHECK OUT HER OTHER BOOKS TO YAY

OKAY STAY PEACEFUL