Colorful (Adopted by Emblem3)

Chapter 8: These Battle Scars

Ryder's POV:

I woke up and went downstairs and as always, Keaton was the only one up.

I sat down and he slid me a big bowl, filled to the brim with strawberry yogurt. I shoved a spoonful in my mouth and instantly felt sick.

I ended up eating half the bowl and then, sliding the rest to Keaton as he finished it up.

"I'm so excited for tonight!" I said excitedly. In case you forgot, tonight's the night of the one direction and 5sos concert and I am beyond excited.

I went upstairs to get ready. I looked down at my stomach and felt horrible just looking at it.

I bent over the toilet and forced anything that was in my stomach, out.

I put my phone onto the iHome and pressed shuffle on my music as Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park played. One of my favorite Linkin Park songs. (A/N: If you haven't heared it a suggest you listen to it. It's a great song and describes so much about Ryder's situation)

I stepped into the shower as the song blared through the speakers, loud enough for me to hear in the shower.

"Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream.

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean.

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright.

So I'm breaking the habit,

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream.

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean.

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm breaking the habit,

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one that falls