Colorful (Adopted by Emblem3)

Chapter 23: Break the barricades

Song of the chapter: A match into water by Pierce the Veil

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Ryder's POV:

I glanced across the room to the desk. A small, hand held, pencil sharpener caught my eye.

I picked myself up and went to over to the desk. I picked up the sharpener, examining it. It was unused. Perfect.

I knew I wouldn't be able to find a screw driver in here, so I used a bobby pin, to unscrew the screw that held the blade and plastic intact. It took awhile but, it worked.

I didn't hesitate to slide the blade across my wrist.

The first cut for being a waste of space.

The second for causing tons of drama.

The third for ruining the boys' lives.

The fourth for not trying hard enough for Keaton.

The fifth was for something I thought I'd never cause myself pain over again. Being the reason my mom ended her life.

It was all my fault. I knew she didn't love me as much as she loved Ryan. When Ryan left she would get all depressed and would drink.

But, I don't really want to talk about her.

I watched as the blood trickled down my wrist. Each drop making me feel so much better.

It felt so good.

I felt so much better.

But, when the bleeding stopped, all the memories of the reasons came back to mind.

There was a knock at the door.

"Hey, Ryder are you okay? You've been up here for about an hour now." Drew's voice said softly.

"Y-Yeah." I choked out, cleaning up the blood, on the floor and on my wrist.

I opened the door, to see a tear staind faced Wes and Drew.

"Can I talk to her for a sec?" Wes asked. Drew nodded and walked downstairs.

I let Wes into my room, an awkward silence filled the room.

"Listen, Ryder, I'm truely and sincerely sorry. If I could go back, I would have told you that I knew. I would've never let it slip out of my mouth. I would've never told Drew, unless you really wanted me too or it got bad. I care so much about you. You're a sister to me. You're my baby sister. I will always, always care about you. You're a part of my life. You're a part of me. I want you to know, we were argueing over who got to take you to school tomorrow. Never think for a moment that Drew, Keaton, and myself don't love you. We love you. Breezie and Brooke love you. Bridgit and Jake love you. Our parents love you. Carly, Kyle, and Kenny love you. You're tons of cousins love you. We love you more than words can describe. You're so important to us. One day you're going to walk down the isle to a man that loves you more than the world itself. The world loves you. I love you." Wes said.

I hadn't noticed that I was crying until Wes wiped the tears away and pulled me into a tight hug.

"I love you too Wes." I said into his chest. "You're the best."

"I know I am." He chuckled.

Wes left and Drew walked in.

"We seriously need to talk about how you treat yourself." He said with a concerned look.

"I know." I sighed.

Here we go...