The trailer of the film 'Victor Frankenstein'
I jumped out my bunk walking in the bathroom, three days after the incident with Ricky and my medicine. These days the guys have made sure that I took my medicine.I took off my dirty clothes and threw them on the floor, before getting in the shower.
There was only one thing that I hated about the shower. The mirror was exactly opposite of shower, so I had to watch my ugly self, until I was finished showering.
As I felt the cold water running down my back, I looked up at the mirror to see myself.
I was pale. More pale than usual,almost deadly pale. My eyes weren't that blue that they used to be. They weren't so bright. They looked white, deadly white. I had lost too much weight. I could see my bones and my veins clearly. In one word I looked like shit.
Oh poor Ghostie! Don't think that I make you like this, because I didn't! You did this to yourself! You are pathetic and a failure! I still don't understand how the guys haven't kick you out the band yet! I don't get it! You are so embarrassing, Devin! And untalented! The guys are sorry for you! That's why you are still in the band!
I tried to fight the tears back. I truly tried. But, I couldn't. Soon, my cries became sobs, but I tried to stay quiet. I didn't want to worry the guys. I wanted them to get some rest and enjoy their lives, something that I wasn't able to do anymore.
Suddenly, I heard a knock on the door.
-Devin, are you okay? You are in the shower almost one hour!
Ryan.
-I'm fine, RyRy! Don't worry! I lied like an actor using his nickname.
-You sure? Asks Ryan with concern. I never use his nickname.
-Yes! Don't worry! I answered and I sighed in relief, when I heard him leaving.
I turned off the water and put on my clothes, before walking out the bathroom and to the front lounge, where the guys were watching a film. I sat between Vinny and Angelo and looked at ten screen.
-What are we watching? I asked the guys.
-Victor Frankenstein. Answered Balz and I nodded.
This monster reminds me of you! It could be your twin brother! You two look alike!
I shook my head and stood up, opening the cupboard with my medicine. Someone paused the movie and I could feel the guys looking at me worried.
-You okay, Devin? Asked Chris as I swallowed the pill.
-Never been better! I answered, ironically.
The guys looked more worried, if that's possible.
-What's wrong, Devin? Asked Ricky, standing up.
-Nothing guys! Continue with your movie! I'm going to get some sleep! I informed them, before waking in the bunk area.
I jumped on my bunk and wrapped the blankets around me. As I was falling asleep, I felt someone climbing on my bunk, before wrapping his arms around me. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and stare playing with my hair. His touch was soft and I understood that it was Ricky.
You guys look so cute! Why don't you ask Ricky out? Oh, I know why! Because you know that he would say no! You are too ugly, too embarrassing, too pathetic for him! He hates you, Devin! Everything he is saying is a lie! He just wants you to believe that he cares, but he doesn't! He wants to get rid of you! He hates you, Devin, everyone does! Why don't you kill yourself already, so everyone can be happy?
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Hey guys!
This weekend is Easter for us in Greece, so I won't update. You are going to able to read the new chapters on Tuesday or Wednesday!
Alice❤️
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Schizophrenia (Devin Sola)
Fanfiction'She was back. I was sure about it. I was gonna to live the same thing again, like when I was younger. But with the only change that I wouldn't survive the war that was happening on my mind!'
