Warining: This chapter contains swearing, so read with your safety.
After our little hug the guys decided to watch a movie, but I was too tired that I decided to go to bed. Bad idea.
I was on the bus. There wasn't any lights on and I could hear sobbing from the bathroom.
I opened the door to find Ryan and Ricky on the floor with their wrists red from the blood, Balz and Vinny taking a lot of sleeping pills and Chris trying to hang himself. In the middle of all of this was standing Liz with a smirk on her face.
-You caused it, Devin! You made the guys kill themselves! You! It's you fault! You,Devin!
-Devin! Devin! It's okay! It's only a dream! I heard voices scream.
I opened my eyes to find five really worried guys standing next to my bunk. It was obvious that I had woken them up.
-Sorry guys! I woke you up! I apologized.
-No need to apologize,Devin! Do you want to talk about your dream? Asked Ricky softly.
I shook my head quickly.
-Was it that bad? Asked Vinny and I nodded.
Balz looked at me and then at the guys.
-Do you want someone of us to stay with you for tonight? He asked casually.
My checks went red, but I nodded. Balz climbed next to me and closed my bunk curtain, before wrapping my arms around my waist. I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes.
O, look at the little faggot. You got over Edward pretty quick, hm? Do you even remember him? He would be ashamed to look at you right now!
-SHUT THE FUCK UP! I screamed and sat up on the bed, bringing my knees to my chest. I let the tears fall on my cheeks and I heard moving from the bunk above. The guys were waking up. Balz was already up trying to made me explain the situation.
The curtain went open and I heard the guys talking to each other worried.
-Devin, what's wrong? Asked Balz for the seventh time.
I sniffled.
-I'm sorry for waking you up, again! I mumbled looking at the five really worried guys.
-Devin that's not the problem! Are you okay? Asked Ryan.
I nodded.
-Did she say something bad to you? Asked Chris.
I nodded.
-She brought some bad memories back! I explained.
-Do you want to talk... Began Vinny but I cut him off.
-Can someone bring my phone please? Asked as politely as I could.
Chris went to the front lounge and brought my phone. I touched the contact of my girlfriend and began typing. Balz leaned on me so he could see what I was writing and he took a shaky breath.
-Devin... He began but never finished.
I sighed and looked at the Send bottom. Should I really do this?
Do it, faggot! Do it! Break up with her! You are a little piece of shit and no one deserves you! Send it!
And I send it. And I stared crying in a matter of minutes for the third time in one night. It was for the best. Kylie would never understand what was happening. She wouldn't have wanted to stay with me, I'm 100% sure. I just made the situation happen faster.
Balz hugged, while Ricky read out loud my message. By the end everyone was on tears.
-Oh, Devin! Mumbled Vinny softly.
They knew how much I loved her. Suddenly my phone buzzed and Chris read her answer out loud.
Go Fuck Yourself!
I closed my eyes.
-You can go to sleep guys! It's okay! I have Balz here protecting me! I half joked.
It was obvious that the guys didn't want to leave me alone in this state, but the went to their bunks knowing that Balz would take care of me.
You broke her feelings, Devin! That's what you always do! You brake people! Because your a failure! Good night my little Ghost!
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Schizophrenia (Devin Sola)
Fiksi Penggemar'She was back. I was sure about it. I was gonna to live the same thing again, like when I was younger. But with the only change that I wouldn't survive the war that was happening on my mind!'
