After that I decided I would try and sleep but Cas refused to leave. One part of me didn't want him to leave but the other part knew that he needed sleep because of his grace or lack thereof.
"You need to sleep,"I murmured on his chest. Together we were laying in my bed on top of the covers.
"No, I made you a promise and I intend on keeping that promise," he answered. Sighing I pushed myself up, using his body then faced him.
"Yes but you can't forget about yourself. Cas we're in the bunker, this is the safest place for me. Nothing will get me in here but you need to sleep and I'm not used to sharing my bed with another human so you have to leave so we can both sleep but if it'll make you feel better we'll sleep with the door open and then you can - " the soft snore entered my ears. Rambling puts him to sleep, good thing to remember for later.. I thought to myself. Softly moving around I tried to make myself comfortable but to no avail. I just wasn't used to it yet. Still, I laid there hearing him breathe, thinking of how we could get his grace back. My mind went back to the episode where he lost it. Metatron had it but he never died so that must have meant that he was alive and knew where it's location. Finally, a project I could do without getting hurt or hurting anyone - besides Metatron that is.
Carefully maneuvering my way out of the bed I tiptoed down to the library. Looking around the shelves, I found one on Angels and pulled it out but then I found a separate one specifically on grace so I hauled that one out as well. Soon I ended up with four books that could possibly help me. Sitting myself down I began to turn the pages and read.
"Fitting in already huh?" Dean's groggy voice came in from behind me. Jumping I accidentally threw the book off the table. "Maybe not all the way," he responded quietly.
"Sorry I thought you'd still be sleeping," I sighed, moving my honey blonde hair out of the way.
"Nope I got a solid five hours I feel great," he smiled then made his way over to my work station, grabbing the book that I had flung on the way.
"Why are you studying about angels? We have one and aren't some sort of superfan or something?" he asked.
"I'm trying to find something to help me find Cas's grace. I wouldn't say superfan I'm not like Becky in anyway... unless you think I act like Becky...," I shuddered at the thought. Not that I didn't like Becky but I don't think I'd ever make a demon deal to get Cas to fall in love with me or any of the boys... I just think it's a bit much but to be fair she was hilarious and I could connect with her in one way.
"No, no you definitely don't act like Becky. I need to go on a supply run, you want to come with? It looks like you need new clothes," he eyed me up and down. I stared down at my jeans and what used to be light pink t shirt and nodded.
"Yeah you're right. I'll come with you," I sighed. Closing the books I followed Dean up the stairs and into the Impala. My mind still couldn't wrap itself around the fact that I was sitting in Baby with Dean freaking Winchester! Small moments like that made me realize just how freaking awesome this thing was! Awesome and permanent...
Once we were on the road Dean turned down his Metallica and looked at me with seriousness.
"So you and Cas are a thing now?" He was trying to play it cool but Dean wasn't good at it.
"Yeah, it's a little weird because up until last week him and you and Sam and everything were just fake. You were just something I watched on my computer but now...it's real... it's real and I'm screwed," I breathed, not meeting Dean's eye contact.
"Screwed? In what way?" he smirked.
"In the negative way you pervert. Girls don't last long in here, I just thought it was because the writers were sexist and extremely male dominant but now that I'm here - living it I'm just realizing that death is closer than it was a few days ago but I'm happy I have Cas," I tried to smile but it didn't really work.
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A Supernatural Kind of Day
FanfictionPoppy is your every day 21 year old College student / Supernatural fan living at home with a disapproving mother... What happens when Sam and Dean Winchester show up with a bloodied Cas claiming to need her help?? READ AND FIND OUT! This is a Cas...