~Imogen's POV~
What was she doing here? Taking over our 'support group' and now my school?
Did she perhaps move here from somewhere...or transfer. I don't think some one would come to a different school during the last quarter.
"Hi?" I say to her smiling face...still fairly close in front of me. "Do you need something?"
She shakes her head in confusion, "No...well yes..I'm new obviously...and since I guess I know you...I thought you would help me figure this school out?"
She finishes her question off shyly and looks down to the ground before smiling at me again.
I internally sigh, maybe this could be good?
"Hand me your schedule."
Her hands fumble as she reaches behind her into her bag grabbing the crumpled piece of paper and handing it to me.
What are the chances! She has the same schedule as me...great?
"Follow me." I say halfheartedly grabbing her hand and pulling her behind me so we can get to class before the tardy bell rings.
"Where are we going?" concern laced through her voice.
"On an adventure...what do you think? We are going to class!"
"Oh."
Was that to harsh? Crap... I always have to mess up everything.
I stop tugging her behind me and allow her to just follow.
I pull up in front of my..our English classroom and swing open the door.
"We have a new student Miss Jones." I say leaving Aspyn at the front of the class, heading to my desk in the back corner. Her face is red and she gives me a look of betrayal, I lay my head on the desk blocking the rest of the class out.
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English seemed to go on forever. Our assignment today was to right a letter to our future self, if I'm not dead by then.
I think I was the only one doing work though, every one was trying to get to know 'the new girl'. She seemed so innocent too, like it didn't even matter.
I'm not jealous of her...I'm fine with my no friends and no life policy. It's worked so far...I mean beside the major depression and shit.
Ugh...what am I doing with my life?
Math, Science, and PE were the same...slow and boring. I'd been begging for lunch all day but then when the time actually came I end up here...in the library, as usual.
I mean I have a smushed up protein bar in my bag and a old water bottle...that's good enough right.
I stopped going to the cafeteria a long time ago because I looked awkward just sitting alone. I mean it's kind of embarrassing being a junior in high school and not having any friends. I know depressing.
I take the last bite of my protein bar and turn the page on my book, almost done. I don't now if it's better finishing a book or worse, because you get the satisfaction of finishing but then you're torn apart...because it's over.
I just finish a chapter as the bell rings signaling lunch is over, of to another boring class.
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I take my seat at a double desk and take my history book out of my bag reading what is due on the board at the end.
'Read chapters 14-15 and answer all questions in notebook.'
Like I said, 'another boring class.'
I start to open the book and see someone sit down in the corner of my eye...no one sits beside me? I turn in my seat and see Aspyn reaching into her bag and pulling out her book.
"Hey, where were you at lunch?" She asks me like it's a simple question.
"Library." I say continuing on my reading.
"Don't you eat lunch?" her voice is full of concern.
"Yea of course," I reply. "I just sit in the library...because I have no friends." I mumble the last part quietly.
"What?" Well crap...she heard me.
"Nothi-" I stop talking and stiffen as I feel something hard hit the back of my head. I slowly turn around facing Rose...my ex.
"New girlfriend already?" I feel Aspyn stiffen next to me and I deflate in my seat. "Can't you learn that no one will ever love yo-"
"Class quite down...you need to finish this assignment if you are going to turn it in at the end of the period." Thank the lords for Mr. Ceiling.
When everyone quiets down I shut my book, grab my bag, and get out of the classroom as fast as possible, I mumble a 'I'm going to the washroom.' to Mr. Ceiling. He gives me a sympathetic look as I rush out.
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I sit shaking in the stall with the blade to my wrist...
Ugly
Stupid
Fat
Annoying
Gay
Boring
Mental
Weird
That's eight. I try to take even breaths but it ends out coming in a sob.
Minutes pass and in able to calm my self down. I clean everything up and go to look in the mirror. My eyes are still puffy, but other than that...okay...not okay? Screw it.
I'm about to head back into class when I turn and stop in my tracks when I see Aspyn in the doorway with a weird look on her face. I guess she hates me now too.
I push past her and walk right past my class, I'm heading to the exit doors. I open them up and walk of campus.
This was not how I expected my day to go. I didn't think I'd be able to cry any more, but wetness gathers on my face as I walk...farther...and farther away.
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AN- here's another chapter from Imogen. Hope you enjoyed?
~Shadow❤️
