~Imogen's POV~
I spent the rest of the day after school in bed only going out once to get the mail. I ended up spotting Aspyn and she came in for a couple minutes.
She seemed to have something horrible on her mind, so for once in my life I tried to be optimistic. It turns out she lives fairly close by, and we ended up exchanging numbers too.
She told me she was going to prom so I asked her to tell me all about it, you know the usual girly thing, when in reality I didn't have a fucking care in the world. I was in need of a friend what was I supposed to do, in reality Aspyn has always been nice to me...I've just been living in my depressing whole of a life.
The pills had been helping some, I mean I still had the daily urge to end it all...and that is what scares me. Aspyn had left a short while ago and now I was sitting...back in bed.
I check the clock reading 6:18 and decide to actually have a shower and change. I walk into my washroom and turn the shower on full heat stripping the clothes of my body.
I end up ripping the cuts on my wrists and some of them start to trickle blood down my arms. I stare at myself in the mirror, stiff. My arms and legs start shaking and I sit down on the cool tile floor taking in deep breaths.
I cool myself off and shakily step inside the shower, leaning my head against the cool tile letting the hot water run down my scratched and broken body.
I run shampoo and conditioner through my hair, wincing whenever it washes over my cuts, and step out drying myself slowly with my blue towel.
I wrap it around me and hand dry my white hair letting it fall loosely and dripping over my shoulder. I look over myself and sigh before leaving the washroom, going into my room.
I go to open my closet to pull on some shorts and a tank top when my phone buzzes from my nightstand. I go over to check it and see a text from Aspyn. I open it up and read 'hey need to talk, let's hang out?'
I text back a quick, 'sure, I'll be there in 10 minutes.' I decide against the shorts and tank top in this case and pull on some sweatpants and a loose long sleeve shirt. One day maybe I'll be able to wear short sleeves...
Before leaving I push on some old bunny slippers, she won't care what I look like...will she? I run down the steps yelling to mum that I'm going out and I don't hear an answer...so I think I'm okay.
I push open the door feeling a rush of cold air against my skin. I'm in sweats and a long sleeve for goodness sake...it's supposed to be summer! I try to walk fast to Aspyn's, hugging my body tightly together to keep myself warm.
I make it to her front door and knock lightly. The door swings open and I'm greeted with what looks like Aspyn's brother? He looks me up and down and gives me a weird look when he sees my bunny slippers.
"You must be Imogen?" I nod shyly before he ushers me inside closing the door. "Follow me, she is upstairs." I follow him up quietly and he opens the door to Aspyn's yellow and white room. Gosh this girl must love that color it's all over the place, she'd probably look good in the color too, wait no.
I awkwardly step in and she pats the spot beside her. I carefully sit down and give a small smile to her.
"Are you..." I didn't want to say okay, because let's face it anyone who has to go to support group is not okay.
She seemed to understand what I'm saying because she shakes her head, before a tear slips down her cheek. I could tell she was trying not to loose it, so I enveloped her in a hug.
She started to sob into my chest and I just tried to comfort her like mum would for me. Minutes pass and her crying quiets down. She takes a deep breath and moves away from me before blurting out "my mom's been diagnosed with cancer."
I stair at her face wide eyed. This was not good, this would tear her apart...I new how this shit went. Her mum couldn't die. "Oh Aspyn...I don't know what to say...I know that you have to be there for her though...please stay strong for her." I take in a breath, "for me..for Miles..your dad and brother." I take in another deep breath. "She can survive this." I say in the strongest voice I can manage.
She just gives me a sad smile, looking back down at her bed sheets. I absentmindedly scratch at my wrists before saying, "do you just want to watch shitty movies and binge out on popcorn?"
That gets me a small laugh from Aspyn and she lightens up a bit. "Okay." She says quietly.
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We are all set up on her bed with a small bowl of popcorn between the two of us deciding on a movie to watch. We eventually pick out 'the little mermaid.' We are so weird, I know.
Aspyn has lightened up more since the news she shared with me and she has started talking again.
I don't think I ever finished the movie because I ended up dozing of halfway through, while talking with Aspyn.
I woke in the morning to Aspyn snoring and taking all the sheets. I smiled softly to myself and turned to look at her clock, 9:15! We had overslept and missed class.
Well I know I'm not going to go to the rest school today, I don't know about Aspyn though.
I turn back over and lay my head on her soft pillows before dozing of again.
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AN- a shorter chapter for you before I go to bed.
Hope you enjoyed, leave comments! It would really help!!!
~Shadow❤️
