Scarred

Teenage Dream

Chapter 8 Teenage dream

Samantha’s Pov

I looked at the book that was laying on my desk. It is a whole mystery! I just don't get it’s like it's telling my a story but it's virtual, like I'm drawn into it and it's playing a story with me in it and at the same time telling story of him.

I look around in my empty room, I haven't packed anything up except for my clothes. I know it's stupid but I can't bring myself to do that because every time it feels like I'm letting go of her and I never want to lose her. They say that time heals everything but that's stupid I've been broken for so long and it never feels like it's about to get better or easier!

I walked downstairs to find my aunt and George sucking each others face off which disgust me every time but I can't really judge them for being in love. I grabbed my jacket and walked out. Lately this has been everything I'm doing. I wake up and eat breakfast then stare at the book and somehow always ends walking in on George and Clarie making out which always Leads me to grab my jacket and walk out and yes I do know it's summer June to be exact but you never know if it's going to rain  or snow well that's at least what Bridget used to say. I smile of the thought when she said that always half joking but there was always an underlying seriousness about it.  

I didn't even get out the door before I bumped into Nathan who was standing there smiling at me. We started walking in silence. This was kind of a new normal after seeing them make out I would walk out and then bump into Nathan as if he was waiting for me.

We walked in silence as usual until we got to the park. It was truly beautiful this time of the year. All the trees and flowers was blossoming everything was so light and green. It all felt like clean and fresh start and I'm enjoying every little part of it.

I looked up from my thoughts to see Nathan studying every part of my face which made my cheeks go slightly red as they always do when he's looking at me and the scary part is that it only takes a smile from him to make my cheeks go as red as a firetruck.

“What are you thinking about, beautiful?” He asked as he looked me straight into my eyes.

He called me beautiful I screamed inside of my head,He's the only boy that has ever called me that and since he probably isn't even alive I don't know what to make out of that.

“ Nothing” I heard myself mumble as my cheeks went all firetruck red. Which made him chuckle.

We sat there in complete silence and just watching the beautiful view. We usually never talk we just sit in silence partly because the silence we have never is awkward just really peaceful and then there’s the part where people think I'm a mad person for sitting and talking with myself since nobody else seems to see Nathan.

I have no clue about was going on between us I'm guessing we’re going somewhere towards friends but my stomach says something else but every time we spend time together I try my hardest to shut that feeling out because lately everything is crazy and I really mean everything. The feelings I feel are so strange and the worst part is I don't know what it means I've never felt it before in my whole 17 year long life since I never spent time around boys and it wasn't like they were chasing me either after all I'm the strange loner with straight A's but I'm not complaining because I really don't do good around other people it always feels like i'm being smothered so I've stayed away all my life but then he came long.  

Once again I felt his eyes on me carefully watching as if I was going to scream and run away with my legs on my back. I smiled at him or more likely grinning at same time as a old lady walked by and she looked at me as if I was a crazy person. I saw Nathan's Smile turn into a frown and he sighed, I looked at him and was about to stretch out my hand towards him when I realized that the old lady was still staring at me so I quickly dropped my hand and my smile died. Just when I was starting to feel happy again something have to happen to destroy it, just my luck!