Torn // exo x reader

7; Escaping and Panic Attacks

She coughs hard, and as soon as she even thinks about her need to cough, there's a hand on her back, rubbing in circles. She's slightly embarrassed to almost die because of something as minuscule as a shout, but it can't be helped now.
"Sunny, you scared Y/N half to death, she could have died!" Onew yells, growling amidst his sentence.
She turns around and the poor girl looks terrified, shaking slightly and her eyes glued  to her feet. Y/N feels bad for her, and reaches across the table to pull at Onew's sweater sleeve, eyes downcast and voice timid.
"Jinki, leave h-her be."
He looks at her, and sees how serious she is, so he backs down and sits again returning to his shell full of meat and lettuce in his plate, murmuring apologies she doubts Sunny can hear.
"So, uh, Y/N, how was your day?"
She shrugs, eyes not leaving the plate in front of her, since she doesn't think she can force herself to sound excited or interested in any way in the conversation. Jonghyun doesn't give up, and keeps throwing attempts at conversation her way, and she successfully dodges them all.
"Y/N, are you okay?"
"Yeah..I'm fine."
Onew sighs, and stands, walking away from the food still on his plate, breathing hard and quickly, hands grasping at the sides of his sweater. He's muttering things she can't hear, but Minho and Jonghyun and everyone at the table looks worried, and people try to focus back on the food but his disappearance is troubling everyone.
Taemin doesn't look up from his food, and keeps shifting and standing slightly but he always sits back down, and keeps eating quickly. He has two soft tacos, and at one point in his rush to eat he drops some lettuce and cheese onto his lap, and only then does he look up, but this time it's with a pink tint to his cheeks.
"S-Sorry.."
He meets her eyes, and soon the pink tint gets brighter, but his eyes grow colder, and he almost glares at her. She doesn't know what she did now, but she's quickly distracted by screaming coming from down the hall.
"I just want her to be comfortable!"
She covers her ears quickly, the screech of words slowly turning into growls and something inhuman. She doesn't want to hear it any longer, and people from her able have rushed up to find the source, but she can't force herself to remove her hands from her ears.
They muffle the sound slightly, but most if not all of her attempts to cup her ears and hide from the sound are futile. Tears line her eyes and she grasps at her ears to try to do anything more. Again, her resistance against the sound waves fail. That's until hands find themselves at her ears, and somehow block out all sound coming towards her.
She looks up to see Taemin. His eyes are soft, looking down with mercy at her, but as soon as his eyes meet hers, his face contorts into one of malice. She's put off by the entire thing, so much so that she gasps quietly, and all of a sudden the noise stops.
"T-Taem-"
"Don't lay your eyes on me, rat." He whispers it so quietly she only catches most of it and infers the rest.
She adverts her eyes immediately, and as soon as he walks away she goes to find Minseok because she wants some part of the house because she's scared and wants to cry because of everything.
She walks up to her room and changes quickly into her maid outfit since she hasn't gotten her other clothes back and in the commotion she spilt a bit of sour cream on her skirt and as much as she knows she shouldn't care, old habit die hard.
She's downstairs when she decides to look for Xiumin. He disappeared shortly after Onew did and she doesn't think he got to finish eating.
"Y/N! Y/N!" Speaking of, here he is.
He latches onto her as soon as they're within arms distance.
"You have to get out of here, now."
"W-Why?"
"Don't ask me these things. Go. There's someone waiting for you at the front door, he'll spray you with something and it may burn. She'll tell you where to go."
She doesn't want to go, and it seems Minseok isn't coming with her.
"Minseok what about you?"
"Go. Now."
She's pushed and she doesn't let herself turn around for him, because this is what he wanted. If he's going to stay here and risk potentially his life, she isn't going to mess it up like she did the fight back at the house.
She walks quickly to the front door, looking around for a girl with spray. She finds her quickly, a girl looking around consciously.
"Y/N! I'm Jessica. Here." She sprays the liquid, and it burns. Y/N holds in her scream by biting her tongue.
The girl hands her a piece of paper, and tells her to follow the directions. She doesn't have time to ask where they lead or when to go because she's pushed out the door as soon as the paper touches her palm.
She falls and lands in a patch of mud, but the paper stays clutched in her hand, slightly crumpled and muddy, but readable.
"Run."
The door closes.
Vague.
She get to her feet, and belatedly she realizes she's still in her maid attire. She doesn't think she can afford to go ask for new clothes so she thanks whatever entity that resides in the heavens that she put on tights today.
She's wearing Luhan's shoes, and now instead of blood there's mud caked on them now. The sight is an eyesore since she just cleaned them, but Y/N just starts walking because wherever she's going, she wants to get there quickly.
She hopes its the house, but at this point she'd take anything over Onew's place. The entire place is filled with people, all of which either love or hate her too much. She wants to go back and make pancakes with Tao and talk about dogs with Baekhyun and have staredowns with D.O and other things she didn't realize would mean that much to her.
Most of all, she wishes Minseok was here walking with her.
Then she decides wherever she's going, she'll get people to help her get Minseok back. She will not have him stuck there with those psychopaths. She realizes then she needs to get wherever she's going quickly because Minseok could be dead right now. She doesn't know what'll happen to him without her.
He tends to get mouthy with Onew. It's dangerous.
She looks down at the map, and soon it gets harder and harder to see, so she begins to attempt to memorize the map so she can continue walking into the night, despite the fact she's terrified of the forest late at night.
Just now, there's an ache in her side, and she realizes the push out the door was a little too rough for her back's liking. She doesn't pay the it any mind, and soon it turns more into a dull ache more so than pain. She doesn't know why it took so long for it to hurt but the ache is fine for now, so she treads on as best she can with the lack of light. She hopes she's remembering the steps correctly because she's too far in to back out.
The sky eventually gets darker and so she stops for the night, and she realizes how last minute this must be because she has no food and no water and just a maid outfit, a paper and a dream.
She props herself up against a tree, laying back and closing her eyes. She doesn't want to sleep because she has no clue what's in this forest or where she is but either way she closes her eyes, and falls asleep.

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In the morning, she sets off again, following the steps written out for her messily on the muddy and crumpled paper. Her back hurts even more now, but her neck and sides have decided to join the party too so now she's all around hurting. The pain is stronger now but she still powers on, close to the spot she's supposed to be.
She keeps her noises to a minimum since she doesn't want to attract unwanted visitors, and she follows the rest of the steps until she comes to a clearing.
This is it. This should be the spot.
She sits down on the grass, and soon starts to lay down.
The pain in her sides and back and neck doesn't subside but amplify, and she wants to die because she's convinced it'll be less painful than this. She holds them, as if that'll help her muscles resist the pain. Needless to say, it doesn't. The level of pain stays grounded on a scale of one to ten, firmly on eight.
After laying down for a while, she tries to sit back up, but even moving upwards slightly hurts. She forces herself up though, and after she knows she just made it ten times worse. The pain level rises to eighty out of ten. Ouch.
She lets out a moan of pain, and grasps at her lower back, but she's not sure what hurts the most.
All of a sudden, there's a crash through the trees, and two wolves come crashing to the clearing. They're obviously fighting, and Y/N wants no part of it. She scrambles away from their battle as quickly as her injured body will allow.
One is beating the other harshly, and is biting at it's neck harshly. It's going in for the kill and this is no playful roughhouse.
There's a howl of pain, and the top one has won. It stays far away from Y/N though, like she doesn't exist. It trots back into the trees like it didn't just slay another one of its own kind.
At the sound of a whimper, she retracts the previous statement. It's not dead. She rushes over despite her better judgement and sees it had gotten beaten to hell and back. It's snout has claw marks and tufts of hair from it's coat is missing. It looks scared when she comes over, but quickly that emotion is replaced with aggression.
It reminds her of Taemin.
"Shush, I won't hurt you."
She tries to let it, but it shies away, scared once again.
She finally approaches it successfully, and she examines the injuries she can see. Most of them aren't life-threatening, but still look bad. It's grey coat is tinted red in most if not all places, and she can barely tell what's paw and what's mud caked with blood on it's paw.
All of a sudden, there's a crash from the woods again, and it's a car.
Someone walks out, and it looks like a female. It doesn't look like anyone from Onew's place. She's relieved, but that emotion is short-lived when she sees who it is that walks closer to her, a smirk driving fear into Y/N's heart and causing tears to collect on her lashes.
"Miss me, darling?"

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Alrightie! I just got back from camp today, and I'm posting this at about eight o'clock at night so I've been working on this for three hours. For how much I put into it, it's pretty bad but whatever. I hope you enjoyed and liked that is all I want. I listened to Monsta X whilst writing this, so I felt pretty badass since everything they do is so lit oh my goodness.
Anyways, have a great morning/night/afternoon and I hope you're all super happy and ate well and are feeling good.
Love,
Sierra.