Friends With Benefits (Dark Zayn Malik Fanfiction)

Chapter 7:

Hope's POV

It is three in the morning and I am fully wide awake because I keep stressing about what's gonna happen when Zayn finds his first true love. If he's still in love with her then I don't know where that's gonna leave us, I mean yes this was just supposed to be simply fucking each other with no feelings or emotions, but it's eating me alive to know that I do like Zayn. I mean I really don't know anymore, but I want him to be happy whilst I want happiness too at the same time, but I can't be happy without Zayn. That's my problem. I may need him, but I don't know if he needs me too. Yet I doubt he does anyway. I don't know what's gonna happen to me if I keep letting myself believe it's nothing when it is something, but what can I do when he doesn't even like me like that. I mean why would he invite me on this journey aross the world to find his one true love and trust me I know it sounds crazy, but we are just going like halfway around. We are going to like a couple of cities, states and countries, but nothing major. I finally passed out around 5 a.m. and lucky me Zayn was up at 6 (sarcasm). Well of course he did try to wake me up and I wouldn't budge so he snuck his hand under the bedsheets and stuck his fingers in me and began to pump them and I woke up moaning against my will. "Zaaaaayn!" I scream and a smirk played across his face. He licked up my cum and sang, "Best damn cum ever." "What?" "Oh nothing. just thinking about how I'll miss licking up your cum. Which reminds me we've been fucking around for about like almost two months now and even though we're stopping I just realized you may have blown me a bunch of times, but I never sucked your pussy once." "Why would you need to when we're just friends." I said; stating the obvious. "I don't know I just feel like maybe it will taste better when it's fresh and I mean like right when you cum fresh." He said; whilst licking his lips. "Aw cute, but remember we have to go to London today." "So?" "So get packing and stop drooling, I mean you're the one who's telling me we can't do this anymore anyways right?" I stated. We finally got all dressed and ready and all packed up. We got into his car and buckled our seatbelts and we were off to the airport to phase 1 of our journey somewhat around the world and I didn't tell him yet but I'm also gonna be using our travel time to look for my first true love as well, maybe it'll even help me get over him.

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We got on the plane to London and found our seats that are luckily next to each other. "So even though we're not friends with benefits anymore are we still friends?" I asked; shyly. Please say yes, please say yes. I kept repeating in my head as he stared into space in deep thought I'm assuming. He finally returned his gaze back to me. "Yeah and you know what you actually kind of remind me of her." He smiled; sincerely. "Awe thanks and I got big news for you Zayn." I began. "What?" "Well I was thinking since we're going on this journey or adventure or whatever to find your first true love I figured I could find mine too." I finished. "Oh cool." "What's wrong Zayn?" I asked; sympathetically. "Oh nothing." He says; whilst pulling at his clothes uncomfortably. "Here I know what will help." I said; whilst I pulled him closer and I cuddled up into his chest whilst he wraps his arm around my waist pulling me even closer as we close our eyes and fall into a peaceful sleep.

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We finally arrived in London and we're at our hotel right now and just got done unpacking. We planned on staying here for like three days so we have three days to try and find our first true loves with clues or just plain looking or whatever. But lucky me Zayn doesn't know that when me and my love were 13 we had an eighth grade field trip here and we buried our old friendship necklaces in the back of an old middle school Vallery High (not a real middle school). I'm going there right now and Zayn said that he was doing the same thing as me, but I couldn't tell him and again lucky me because he's not gonna be anywhere near me in order to see what I'm doing. I got there and I began digging up the exact spot we buried them in and took out a black velvet necklace case that held the last piece of my only true love. I took the box home with me and put it in my hotel room hidden in between some books I brought with me on a shelf and I know that Zayn would never touch it because he doesn't really read from what I know about him, unless he does, but I still doubt it. Ok now I'm at least hoping he doesn't, I do trust Zayn and all, but my first love was like my other half so as long as he's gone half of my heart is. I mean it's weird though because whenever I'm around Zayn I feel whole, but I don't love him and that's my BIG problem. I fell asleep right away tonight and I can't wait for tomorrow because me and Zayn are going out for lunch and to carnival and I'm not sure about what we're doing for our last day, but yeah.