Always there, unforgettable.

Chapter 1

My name is Zoey. I am fifteen years old. I live in a big house in California with my parents and my two adorable little sisters. You could say I had a perfect life. A great family, good grades in school and loads of friends.

That's what I thought.

Until some things went horribly wrong...

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When I woke up there was the sun shining into my room. I blinked against the sun. Again I had forgotten to put down the blinds before going to sleep. That's why I always wake up early. To be honest: I hate myself for it. A lot.

I was nothing of a morning person. If you meet me before 7:30 AM you are at risk of me chopping your head off if you piss me off. Seriously. I mean it.

Slowly I made my way down into the kitchen. I grabbed a bowl and poured Cheerios and milk into it. I was the only one to be awake that early. I could tell because there was no little girl shouting or jumping on her bed. Everything was quite.

After I finished breakfast I went upstairs into my room again. On my way to my bed I pass my mirror. A short girl with dark brown, curly hair and shining green eyes. Well, actually they aren't always green. Sometimes they are also a fierce blue. I don't know. I have some weird thing with my eyes. I need to admit that I actually like it that my eyes change colors. They represent my mood. Mostly they are green but when you meet me with greenish brown eyes you should probably be careful.

Yes, I can be a real B*tch sometimes but it needs a lot to make me furious.

I am still staring into my eyes in the mirror. Slowly I am letting them wander all over my body. Over my left eyebrow there is a little scar, barely visible. This one you can blame on my little sister Anna. She threw a glass against my head when she was angry at me once. It started to bleed, not much, just a little bit. Yet enough to leave a scar. I wasn't mad, I guess I deserved that. And also I couldn't be mad at my sisters for long. After she threw that glass she ran upstairs, still a little girl of three years.

After a few minutes she came into my room, sobbing. She threw herself into my arms and cried into my shoulder. I don't know how many times she said sorry. I only remember it being a lot.

My heart was breaking only seeing her cry. We spent the whole afternoon cuddling on my bed. Many of my friends told me that they would've smacked their siblings if they did this. I couldn't understand that. I think I never will.

Another white scar on my pale skin. This one is from Holly, my youngest sister. It happened when we were playing outside in the yard.

Probably all this isn't really important or interesting for you, but for me it is so I will go on.

I, again, look up into the mirror. I wouldn't consider myself as pretty but also not as ugly. Right now I was wearing no make-up. Normally I was putting on some, yet not much. A little bit of mascara. Maybe some eyeliner or lipgloss. I wasn't much of a girly girl. Most of the time I was wearing normal ripped jeans or shorts and a tank top. Dresses were a rare case in my cupboard but I owned a few. Some High Tops always pimp your outfit a bit. Then there is my hair. Like I already said, it is dark brown and curly. I don't really like it. It does whatever it wants. There is no possibility for me to get it under control, really. Also it is really thick what makes it even more difficult for me to make it look somewhat appropriate.

I looked away from the mirror and went to my bed. Exhausted I let myself fall down into the covers. Exhausted? At half past eight in the morning? Yes. Like ever so often I spent most of the night consuming YouTube videos. You could almost call me obsessed. If I have spare time I spend it on YouTube or several social media platforms including Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat and others. Only Facebook wasn't my type.

I thought about some videos I watched last night. Colleen Ballinger, Rachel Ballinger, Miranda Sings, Zoe Sugg, Joshua David Evans, Alfie Deyes, Tyler Oakley and several other YouTubers completely got me. Probably sounds like an ordinary Fangirl that has no sense for reality.

I guess at that point of time that was what I was. A clueless girl that had no idea of what life means, about what terrible things could happen.

With the thought of my favorite YouTube people in my mind I fell asleep again.