Always there, unforgettable.

Chapter 14

The CT scan went great. Honestly, you don't have a clue how happy I am that the results were good. Today was the day I would leave the hospital. I can't remember any time of my life where I felt just as excited and horrified at the same time. I had already packed my bags the night before and now I was just adding my toothbrush and pajamas. Right after I zipped up my bag I heard a knock on the door. Dr. Goldstein promised me to bring me to the orphanage. During the last few weeks we got to know each other pretty well. She was really nice and caring. Like... honestly, I felt like she truly cared.

"Ready?", she asked.

"Not really", I sighed and sat down on my bed.

"Come on, I know you don't like hospitals, get out!", she said jokingly.

I sighed again and nodded. "Let's do this."

I stood up, grabbed my bag and started walking out of the room just to feel a hand on my shoulder that stopped me. I turned around and looked up into the eyes of Dr. Goldstein.

"Don't you want to take this with you?", she held up a thin silver necklace.

Oh gosh. I almost forgot one of the only things that I had left of my family. You could open the medallion hanging from the necklace. Inside there was a tiny picture of all of us. Mom, Dad, Anna, Holly and me. Tears stung in my eyes. How could I forget it?

I grabbed the necklace and carefully stashed it inside of my bag.

"Thank you", I said sincerely.

We walked up to her car and with some difficulties I managed to get into the passenger seat. "We'll go to your house now, ok?", the doctor asked me.

I needed to get the stuff out that was most important to me. I took a deep breath and nodded. The closer we came to my house, the more anxious I felt. My chest tightened.

Dr. Goldstein pulled up in the driveway. We sat in silence for a few minutes until I finally had the courage to get out of the car.

"Do you want me to come with you?", she asked me.

"Give me a few minutes alone... please. But come in if I haven't showed up again in about ten minutes with the first stuff....", I was seriously scared. That's why I asked her to follow if I didn't come out. God only knows what will happen when I get in there.

Again I took a deep breath and got out my key which I fortunately still had . I unlocked the door and walked in. Inside I met a deafening silence. When was the last time it was that quite in the house? Tears started welling up in my eyes and a huge know was forming in my throat. I looked around. Everything looked so familiar, so foreign. Everything was just like I remembered it to be just covered in a thick layer of dust. My life as I knew it vanished under the dust. Silent tears were falling down my cheeks. Carefully I put one step in front of another. I passed the kitchen, the living room, the small bathroom with only a toilet and a sink in it. I walked up the stairs. Holly's room... my parents' room... I walked up even further. Anna's room, our bathroom and finally my room. I touched the doorknob and turned it. When I entered my room I was immediately buried under a wave of memories. Memories from when I was younger. The times when I sat on the carpet together with my sisters, paying with them, the times I was sick in bed and my mom used to sing for me, the times dad gave in and let me play hairdresser. Tears were now flowing down my face and barely one gasp of air reached my lungs. M chest tightened and dark spots blurred my vision. I fell to my knees, my mouth open in a soundless scream.

At this moment everything went black.

*(A/N) Hey guys, I know I suck at updating. I have been on Holiday in Italy and afterwards I had my friend visiting me for ten days. I normally would have updated wasn't it that I only see my friend once a year because she lives in Norway. I'm sorry, I promise that  I will update faster from now on. Sorry again. And something else... I would really appreciate some critique. Thanks for reading,
Much love from a weirdo that is now awkwardly crawling back into her bed to feel even more sorry for not updating and who will (hopefully) soon publish another chapter x*