Supernatural Imagines {ON HIATUS}

castiel x reader ⇸ memory (song) pt. ii

imagine.... Cas wiping your memory of him and the Winchesters.. part two

THE ANTICIPATION. The song in this one ( Please Don't Go - Barcelona) was actually mentioned by ElizabethMayLenz and it's so sad and so good! OK LETS GO

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"Do I know you?"

You looked around, dazed and confused. You saw a man with piercing blue eyes staring at you, he looked devastated, his eyes were full of so much sadness.

All those arrows you threw

You threw them away

After what seemed like hours of silence, the man responded "You-you were lost and we took you in, then you passed out.." You looked past him and noticed two other men standing a couple feet away, stifling tears.

You kept falling in love

Then one day

Why were they crying? They didn't even know you. You tried to get up, but were met with a shooting pain as you did. You looked down to see a dressed stab wound. "I thought you said I was lost, you didn't say anything about a stab wound!"

When you fell

You fell towards me

The blue-eyed man hesitated. The taller of the two behind him cut in, "You were, you had this when we found you, and we took care of it." You nod in understanding, still skeptical about the whole situation. "I don't even remember what happened last night, I must have been hammered." The short one talked now, "You should probably get some more rest, it'll help you get back on your feet." You nodded, trying not to move in any way that would cause you more pain.

The pain from your wound caused you to wake up every now and then. You heard the three men talking at the other side of the room. "I don't know why I am crying like this Dean, angels do not cry." An angel? Maybe it was a thing between them. Angel don't exist, and even if they did, why would they be on earth?

When you crashed in the clouds

You found me

"You loved her, Cas. You're heartbroken." the other voice responded, must be Dean.

You woke up at one point. Two of them were asleep, and the blue eyed one was sat on the bed across from you, studying you. He didn't notice you were awake, and you kept it that way. You were watching him watching you. For some reason, there was a certain familiarity about him. It had been a couple days  since you met them, you had made friends with the short one, who was Dean, and the tall one, who was Sam. But..the other one, Castiel, seemed oddly distant. Once you were well enough to move around on your own, you headed on your way.

Please don't go

You said you goodbyes and thanked them for all they've done to help.

I want you so

Your hug with Castiel seemed to  linger

I can't let go

You walked out the motel door and into the fresh morning air

For I lose control

Three years had passed. You were in a happy long-term relationship, and a great job, all that anyone could ask for.

Get these left handed lovers out of your way

The only strange thing was that you kept seeing Castiel...everywhere.

They look hopeful but you

You should not stay

When you were at the grocery store, he was standing in the parking lot. You were at the park, he was sitting on a bench. Every time you saw him you did a double take, and every time he vanished.

If you want me to break down and give you the keys

You thought it was all in your head, like it was PTSD or something. You started going to therapy, and it helped a little, but you kept seeing him. The therapist told you to confront your problem. "Next time you see him, go up to him, try touch him. He won't be real, and you'll have closure."

I can do that

But I can't let you leave

Today was the day. You would go to the park and sit down, and just wait. You would wait however long it took.

It had been at lease two hours since you arrived, no sign of him. You were walking back to your car when you saw a tan trench coat on the back of a bench facing away from you. Next to it was a man in a black suit with messy brown hair. You ran around the bench and in front of the man. He looked up, slightly confused and worried at the same time. It wasn't him. "I'm sorry.." you said, walking way. You saw another figure a couple feet away from you, walking down the sidewalk. He had on a trench coat, you had to take your chance. You ran up to him and put your hand on his shoulder, he turned around quickly, almost as if he was in imminent danger. It was him..

You stepped back in awe. Your hand was still resting on his shoulder, you lifted it and kept putting it down multiple times, testing if his shoulder was real or not. "You're...you're real. You're supposed to di-disappear." He gave you a solemn yet sympathetic look. He grabbed your shoulder and something happened. You were somewhere else, somewhere empty, an abandoned parking structure. "what's going on?!" You started crying, you weren't exactly sure why, but you did.

Please don't go

"Why are you following me?" you asked through sobs. "Three years...why?" even though you were crying, you were oddly calm about the whole situation, the guy was stalking you for years, why didn't you run away? He put a hand on your head. Images...memories started running through your mind, images of the past, of you...you and Castiel, you and Sam and Dean. You were all laughing, Cas' arm was around you. The more images came up, the more you cried. You were bawling by now. Memories of a knife and a man and Castiel crying came up.

I want you so

The last memory was in the motel room, Cas was at your bedside, you were scared. His hand rested on your forehead, and you fell unconscious.

I can't let go

It all came back to you, your old life. You were shot back into reality. Castiel was shedding tears now. "I knew you...I loved you. Sam and Dean..we were..a family." He nodded, you wrapped your arms around him "Why, why would you erase my memory?"  He pulled away "After you got stabbed, I felt you would've been better off without us, you could live a normal life and do normal things without having to worry about dying every day." you sighed  "If the price of living a normal life was losing you, I wouldn't choose it in a heartbeat. I love you, even when I didn't know it, i knew it. Our connection is too strong. Take me back Cas, please. I want to be with you, all of you. My home is with you." You wiped Cas' tears and he pulled you into an embrace. He kissed your forehead and you held each other for what felt like hours, you wouldn't want it any other way. "Don't ever let me go." you whispered into he crook of his neck. "Never." he responded.

For I lose control