Trepidation JJK FF

二十六

I woke up
and I found myself lying on the floor
miserable, I know
what's new?
I then walked towards the mirror
and I smirked before
colliding my fist with the glass
it took me several punches for it to shatter
I felt the blood gushing out of my hands
I kneeled at the shards and I winced because of the pain
and comfort as well
I took a shard and started on cutting myself
the crimson blood then soon painted my pale
skin
I heard someone
and that person is rushing to open the door
I panicked
who had my keys?
jimin?
he was shocked when he saw me
surrounded by shards
and a pool of blood that was about to form
he closed the door
and rushed to my side
he helped me got up
and his eyes grew wide when he saw some shards that were also
stuck in my knees
I just smiled at him weakly
he carried me
bridal style
and placed me gently at the sofa
he asked me for the first aid kit
and I said that it was located
in my bedroom
he nodded and caressed my cheek
leaning in
colliding his forehead with mine
he closed his eyes and
told me to stay still
opening them again
his eyes portrayed pity
and nuance that
he knew about my disorder
him and jungkook
I cried
hard
when I remembered
that
if jungkook was here
he would get angry at me
because I did not keep my promise
jimin started on pulling out the shards
and started on putting disinfectants
on my wounds
it hurts
but it's nothing when you compare it to the pain
that I'm feeling
I'm back to my old self
jimin was done aiding me
my wrists and knees were full of band-aids and
gauzes
I held his hand
"I'm hopeless, right, jimin?"
he looked at me
with compassion
"no, sura. now, fix yourself ok? we will go visit kookie."
he smiled
a sad yet forced one
as he cleaned the mess that I made
jimin, don't hide your true feelings

look what just happened to me
I exploded