Trepidation JJK FF

二十八

I leaned closer to him
I caressed his cheek
formerly crimson red when I used a lame pick up line on him
and now it was as pale as snow
I touched his lips, that were used to be red and plump
that were ripe for kissing
now, they were chapped and dry
his eyes, oh how I loved how his orbs look at me
how they glistened every time he cries
my tears were now drenching his face
and I wiped it
I kissed him
colliding mine with his chapped ones
this is our last kiss
I smiled as I pulled back
I fixed his bangs and
touched his eyelids
and kissed them too
I will miss you
jungkook
thank you for making me breathe again
for making me live
again

"I'm sorry, if I'll not be able to witness your last breath, okay? I can't pull that plug, I don't want be the reason for that heart to stop beating. that would be unfair right? you were the one who made my heart beat again, and I'll be the one who'll stop yours?
no, kook. I wouldn't do such thing."

I turned around, keeping myself from rushing to his side and hugging him
I don't want to make him suffer that long
I know he wants to rest too
I don't want to prolong his suffering but I can't witness all of it to end
I can't witness him dying

I don't want to
because seeing him die
with my own eyes
is like killing me too

if you kill him, you might as well
kill
me
too

I love you
jeon
and I will always do