Trepidation JJK FF

三十

all of the pain
that I was suppressing for a long time ever since I was born
came to a stop
I fluttered my eyes open
my vision's already fuzzy
I can hear echoing sirens from afar
deafening
I lay limply
at the surface of the street
and
someone was hugging me
I knew
that I was already bathing in my own blood
the color of it
rejuvenates my soul
making me feel alive and kicking
the person who was hugging me was jimin
his tears staining my face
I smiled and tried to wipe all of it but i failed
by messing up his beautiful face with the blood at my fingertips
shushing him in the process
he told me to stay alive
for me, for jungkook
for the rest of them
I mouthed
"you'll be okay."
and
"I am sorry."
for I cannot fulfill the things that he was telling to me
I smiled at him and limply caressed his cheek
I kissed the back of his hand and held it
all of the voices rang inside my head
the people mumbling
the cars honking and the sirens buzzing against my ears
I winced
the pain was excruciating
silhouettes of people were around me
but I noticed someone
familiar
too familiar to be exact
he was walking towards me
his tears were racing down his cheeks
he crouched down to me and kissed my forehead
I closed my eyes
feeling his touch as he did this
oh how I missed him
"relax, love" he whispered through my right ear.
"I love you."
he said
and that's when I decided
to give up on living because I wanted to meet him again

I woke up, oh, I guess that was just a dreadful nightmare
I stood up from sitting under a tree
and a guy approached me
he had the smile that could
light up my whole world
is this
a dream?
"hey, don't fret anymore ok?
as long as we're together, as long as I'm with you, you're safe."
"milk and what sura?"
he lifted my chin
I was bewildered
at what was happening
where were we
I just hugged him and said
"cookies, jungkook."
I cried
this time
they were now
tears of
pure
happiness

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