Adopted By Shane Dawson

8: Boys Boys Boys

This is quite a triggering chapter but if you need to talk to someone message me anytime!
Lucys pov
I walked over to the pool and sat my stuff down on an empty lounger. I slipped off my dress as I decided to take a dip in the pool. "OMG lucy!" I heard zoe squeal.
"What?" I ask.
"You have an amazing figure, you're so skinny and toned!"
"Says you zoe I would kill for a body like yours!"
"Dont be ridiculous! "
I laughed it off and dipped my toe in the pool. It was a bit cold but that's what I needed after an intense workout. I hopped in and began swimming lengths of the pool. I missed swimming I did all the time when I was younger and the orphanage didnt have a pool.
I stopped at the end to catch my breath when I felt a pair of eyes burning into my skin. I turned around to see no other that Joe Sugg himself. When he noticed me staring back he looked away and I could see him blush. I swam over to him to see what he wanted. "You looking something sugg?" I ask quite cocky.
"Oh its just you're an amazing swimmer I couldnt help but to stare!" He chuckled blushing.
"You're too cute!" I say and swimming back over to my lounger. Whats with everyone being so damn attractive round here.
I decided I would get a bit of a tan while im out here. I tan quite easily so it will be no problem. I heard someone drag a chair beside mine. I sat up. Shocked. "Omg you're Finn harries!" I say quite loudly. I loved tge harries twins but ever since Jack got a girlfriend Finn was secretly my favourite.
"So I see I have a fan here! You must be Lucy, Shanes daughter?" I nodded and giggled. No lucy stop acting like such a slut. "Im sorry I need to go!" I say quite abruptly and I grabbed my stuff and went back to my room.
I can't deal with this anymore. I need to tell someone about my past but who?
FLASHBACK
"Lucy we're so very sorry there's nothing we can do to help him," the doctor said sympathetically. I felt my eyes burn. Its all my fault why didn't I help him. Its all my fault. "You can say your goodbyes," I walked into the hospital room. There he was peaceful yet lifeless. I picked up his arm tracing each slice and then kissing them. "Im sorry please come back please!" I tried wishing life and will power back into him it was no use he was gone. I kissed his forehead. "Goodbye my love, dont party too hard!" I whispered. I went back to the orphanage and buried my head in the pillows. How can I be happy again. Without him.
I heard footsteps outside my door and an envelope was slid under my door. It was addressed to me. I picked it up and slowly ripped it open.
(Letter)
My dearest Lucy,
If you are reading this then I am undoubtedly dead. I know its going to be hard but I want you to forget about me. Forget that I ever existed. I was a useless and worthless pile of shit. You are the only one who truly cared for me. At my funeral please dont wear black you know I hate that colour. And dont cry you know I hated to see you upset. I will always love you and remember you.
Lots of love, hugs and kisses
Matthew x
FLASHBACK OVER
I ran to my bed and flopped down tears streaming down my face. "Im sorry Matthew I cant forget you!"
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Thanks for reading this chapter. Sorry its pretty sad but there will be more happy stuff in the chapters to come. Vote!
Ttyl x