This morning I growled at my brother since he made me mad. At least he didn't hear it...
I had the urge to wolf-run though, so I practiced trying and it felt right to me. It felt like that was all I was supposed to be doing.
I found out that Lex might be a boy though.... Lex is a Greek, Egyptian and Russian name. It means defender of men.
It said that they are often found in Europe and Asia. It also said they are found in Russia, though.
Also, I got a wolf tail! Well, it's a fox tail but it looks more like a wolf tail... x3
I wear it all the time, it makes me feel more connected to Lex. But it makes me sad since I can't run free or really play outside.
At least I can open my window letting the breeze and the sunlight in. It makes me feel a little bit better especially since I can hear the nature.
I really have the urge to howl all the time, but I'll get in trouble if I do since my parents don't know I'm a therian....
Later on at night, I tried to meditate again... I couldn't feel my arms or legs, making me feel like I was going somewhere else.
What happened~
I appeared in a green forest, searching for Lex.
I found Lex sitting on a small mountain staring at me in the forest.
I walked over to Lex and asked a few questions.
'Are you a boy or a girl?' Somehow Lex answered saying he was a boy.
'Are you my therian?' Lex responded to that too, somehow saying yes.
I then said, 'Let's run before I have to go' and me and Lex ran, me wearing a wolf tail and ears.
Then, it ended and I was back in my room.
I now have a phantom shift, I feel like I have tail and it bothers me because it feels weird when I sit or lay down.