Tommys POV
We were in Birmingham now, we only had one more show left in the UK after this one. We had a couple of days off now, I sat on my bed my knees under my chin as my head rested on them. My mind drifted to last night, I was so stupid why did I let myself fall for him. I actually slept with my boss, I shouldn't have let him anywhere near me, he had a boyfriend for god sake. I felt like a whore, he wont remember it, but I will and im the one who will have to live with that. I was so angry at myself, I didn't want to leave my room it would be so awkward and embarrassing.
There was a knock at the door, "what?" I asked as Ashley looked round the door. "You ok?" she asked, I shook my head "not really ive done something really stupid" I answered. She stepped in shutting the door behind her as she crossed the room and sat on the end of my bed. "Im sure it wasn't that bad" she told me, "it was Ashley" I replied. "What did you do?" she asked, I looked away from her "I slept with adam" I mumbled. "Did you just say what I thought you said? You slept with adam? When?" she asked.
"Last night, he was all like tommy kiss me. I shouldn't have but I did and then it escalated. He wont remember it, and im left feeling like and idiot because I slept with my boss. Why did I let him Ashley?" I explained. "You let him because you love him, id have done the same if it was me and another guy. I did once, I regretted it after thought I was weak just falling for him so easily. But that's what happens when you love someone tommy. Don't hide in here all day, adams in bed" she said.
"I bet hes suffering this morning" I mused, she smiled "yeah same effect we get everytime when he drinks tequila. Of course Sauli is right there, Adam isn't well enough to argue with him. We all know they are going to makeup though, I saw those messages apparently from you. They didn't seem like something you would write he probably sent them to himself to make you seem bad coz hes a sneaky son of a bitch" she retorted. Something clicked in my mind, "I haven't had my phone for 3 days ive lost it somewhere on the bus. 3 days is the amount of time Sauli has been getting these messages" I said.
"So it could be anywhere?" she questioned, there was a knock on the door. I stood and opened it, "your phone Sauli found it thought youd be better if I gave it you and not him. You might smack him one" adam said handing it to me. "Thanks, how are you feeling?" I questioned taking it from him. "Like shit" he replied, I smirked "you look like it aswell" I replied. "Gee thanks" he answered, "im sure Sauli is looking after you" I said. "No hes doing my head in, going on about these stupid texts hes adamant you sent them" he replied.
"Yeah well everyone thinks I sent them" I replied, he sighed "I don't want to start that argument again tommy please" he said wearily. "Im not anyway its getting on im going to buy some food. Pizza for everyone" I said as I walked past him and headed for the pizza takeout shop. It only took me half hour, I pushed the door open and saw Ashley setting up plates. "Hey" she said smiling, "hey ok so I got margarita, peperoni, Hawaiian and veggie" I said placing the boxes on the side. "Jeez how much do you think we're gonna eat?" she asked, "well you know what monte is like" I replied. "Ok fair point right you go get adam i'll get his majesty in from outside" Ashley said as monte walked in.
"Something smells awesome" he said, me and Ashley exchanged glances. "No touching till everyone is here" Ashley scolded. "Yes mam" he answered saluting like a boy scout, I watched as she went in search of Sauli and I went and knocked on adams bedroom door. I pushed it open it was dark inside, I saw a lump in the bed that I presumed was adam. I slowly made my way across the room, his room was so tidy I didn't need to worry about tripping on stuff.
"Adam hey we have dinner" I said gently shaking him, he mumbled something that sounded like go away but I felt him move under my hand. "Adam wake up you have to eat" I answered, I heard him sigh. "Im not hungry" he replied sleepily, "tough shit get your ass up we got pizza" I replied. He laughed quietly, "fine but im not eating a lot I still feel sick" he replied. I smirked, "yeah well if you will go out and down tequila" I answered. I left him to it, backtracking the past few days. We seem a little more closer now, but Sauli is still a problem. His stupid little jokes are getting old now, hes still going on about the texts.
It was getting to the point where I didn't want to be in the band, I think after this tour is done i'll leave. Sauli and adam are together for real now, I cant watch that anymore. No its time I moved on, I wasn't going to tell them though I didn't want them to know yet. Adam came out of the bedroom his hair combed and makeup on as we all sat down to eat.
