holding on ; hbr

thirty six

when I finally get back to the hotel I rip off my clothes and get into something comfy, sweatpants and a sports bra.

I climb into hunters bed and pull out his computer, I go onto YouTube and type in

sad songs

I play the first playlist that came up and laid down listening. my body was limp and weak. I felt a tear roll down the side of my face. I rubbed away the tear and sat up, pulling over my phone.

I open instagram and scroll through my Insta feed, trying to keep my mind occupied. I see a picture that Loren had just posted 2 minutes ago. it was everyone, hunter Blake weston ariel Zach Brandon. all of them. in one photo. and the caption was

the squad ❤️

I felt even more empty then I did before, I felt left out. lonely. lost. forgotten.

as the songs continue to play, I let myself cry, I let my self he hurt. I can't always be happy can I?

was I ever happy?

just as I curl back up into bed and begin to sob until I was completely empty, hunter walks in.

I watch as he looks around the room, and then at me. my eyes were burning.

"babe, what happened" he says walking over and sitting on the bed next to me

"I'm broken hunter" I say beginning to cry even louder.

I feel him lie down next to me, our faces only inches apart. he wipes away my tears with his thumb.

"well you know what, I'm here to fix you" he says giving me little kisses all over my face. I couldn't help but smile

"I love you y/n, you know I love you" he says, getting under the covers with me. I feel his soft legs brush against mine as he moves closer to me. he was so warm.

he puts my hair behind my ear and places his soft lips upon mine, kissing me passionately. he smiles and lets out a little giggle.

:)) 💞