holding on ; hbr

Chapter 20 { gone! but not for long? }

*the next day*

i sit at the breakfast bar in the kitchen ( still at hunters house ) gazing out the window, looking onto his quiet street.

i watch as christines car pulls up in the drive way, she gets out and walks to the door. i hear the three knocks and get up to open it.

" are you ready? " she asks in a shaky voice, she must have been crying not too long ago

" yeah " i say and grab my purse, walking out into the rain and closing the door behind me.

we get into the car, i sit in the passengers seat doing up my seat belt and pulling out my phone. i turn it on to see a lot of messages from the contact name:

HUNTER ROWLAND ❤️

i unlock my phone and open up messanger, looking at the texts. my eyes scan them, confused.

" im still here "
" come help me "
" i was never gone "
" let me know your okay "
" i miss you "
" i love you . "

i look over at christine, she had a little smirk on her face.

i thought we were going to say our last goodbyes to hunter.

" christine " i say in an uneasy voice

" whats up hun " she looks at me for a few seconds smiling, then puts her eyes back onto the road

" why did i just get a text from hunter?" i ask a little worried, maybe i was seeing things

" im not sure babe, maybe hes not really gone...? hes still in your heart " she says, reaching over, putting her hand onto my chest.

" what ever " i say, rolling my eyes.

we pull up at the hospital and find the closest carpark to hunters ward. i get out and put my phone back into my pocket, following christine inside the building.

she speaks to the reception lady for a few minutes and we head into an elevator.

" click floor 3 please y/n " she asks me sending a slight smile

i push down the button and wait to feel the rising feeling. we get out, and i walk behind her, following her into a little room.

the room was plain, the walls were baby blue and a bed sat in the corner, below a big window looking out onto the city.

i glance over at hunter laying still in the bed. i didnt even recognise him. he was as pail as paper, and his face was slim and scrawny. his freckles were faded, he had lost his colour, the same way i lost the reason to love.

i watch over him, looking at his closed eyes. i felt as if i had shed all the tears i could, and i had used up all of the water in my body to cry, and i was all out. i sat down in a chair in the corner, i felt my eyes getting heavy and i drift into a light sleep.

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i wake up to the sound of my text tone, i pull out my phone and read over the text.

HUNTER ROWLAND ❤️: look up baby girl xx😘

i frown, confused. i look up infront of me too see three people sitting on the bed. i scan their faces one by one.

a boy sits on the left, brandon.
then a woman in the middle, christine.
then another boy on the right, hunter.

WAIT HUNTER?!

i shoot up out of my seat and hunter gets up as well. i jump into his arms, and her rocks me back and forth, taking away all my pain, i felt safe and warm.

" you scared the living crap out of me hunter " i say, feeling a cold tear roll down my cheek.

" i scared my self too, i was out cold for over two minutes, not breathing. my heart had stopped " he explains the whole experience to me as we drive home.

we arrive back at their house, and he runs up the stairs, racing into his room.
he holds his arms out to his sides, twirling around in cirlces, his cheeks were pink, and his eyes were smiley. he was happy, i was happy.

he looks over at his desk, i see the concerned look that fell upon his face.
he picks up the video camera, and i jolt towards him.

" whats this doing here y/n ? i havent seen this in ages " he questions

i watch over his shoulder as he looks at the camera library, he taps on the first clip there was.

i thought he would never have to see this, i watch as he presses play to the suicide video. i see his tears fall from his face.

he looks up at me, his whole mood had changed. all of a sudden he smashes his lips against mine, pushings me onto his bed.

SORRY FOR SCARING U GUYS 😂
love u all,
stay sexy :))