Day&Night (Wonho) COMPLETED

Four

SeolHyun's POV

We sit here in silence for a while and then he pulls out a bag. He empties it and I look at the content of it. It's all some kind of snack that I can't afford to eat. Maybe he can eat anything and stay in shape like that, but I'm a girl and I gain weight.

"I told you I can't eat that.." I sigh and turn my head away from him and the content of the bag.

"Come on, why not?" He's pouting, I just know he is by the tone of his voice. Some things never change.

"Because I am on a strict diet for the debut. I need to lose at least 5 more pounds.." My desperation hangs in the air. The manager told me today that it's better I lose 5 more pounds, in addition to the 10 I already lost.

"Wow, seriously? They are being harsh on you.. You like just fine", he comments with a strong voice. The kind of voice he didn't have back then.

"Well, it's what they want. You know better than anyone that what they want is what you do", I comment a little annoyed. I want to believe he said that because he cares, but who am I kidding?

"That's true. Just look at my hair", he joked and I actually laughed along. It's a real sound I haven't made in almost 5 years. It seems like forever when you put it like that. "I missed that sound to be honest."

I shake my head at his comment. It makes me feel gloomy again. "You were the one who never called back."

"I know and I'm really sorry about that.." Wonho dips his head lowly and then offers me some chips.

I take it without thinking and eat it. It's like we used to be at home. Every night we would sit and look at the sky with snacks, talk about our future lives.

"Why?" I ask him honestly. "Why did you not call back? Why are you sorry?" I know those are hard questions to answer like that, but I need to know.

Wonho has a thoughtful look on his face while he finally looks up. His eyes seem to be sorry.

"Because I am a jerk and selfish", he admitted while still looking into my eyes. "I wanted to start over, anew, leave everything behind me."

He is honest and I sigh a little. It was not what I wanted to hear, but if it's the truth, it's better than a lie.

"Was that all I meant to you? The past? I remember us talking about the future and it always contained the two of us", I think back to those nights that resembles this one so well.

"It's got nothing to do with you, I promise. You know how it was back there.. I wanted to have something new here and I lost sight of who I was for a very long time", he turns to face me.

"I think you're still lost", the words are hollow, practiced and devoid of any humor.

"We'll get to know each other now then? Because I sure as hell am not the only one who changed over the course of the years", Wonho suddenly takes my hand in his. "You'll get to know Wonho, member of Monsta X and I'll get to know SeolHyun, leader of Hugs & Kisses."

How can I say no to him when his smile is so genuine and full of honesty? I do want to get to know the new one, the one I observed on TV for so long. But will I like what I see once I do? And will he still like me after all these years? The scared little girl is gone and replaced by a closed off strong and independent girl.