Day&Night (Wonho) COMPLETED

Thirty Five

Wonho

I am incredibly proud of her. SeolHyun did it. She stood up for herself. And she did it perfectly. There were times when I wanted to step in, but she held me back, she took the wheel and handled it. The only thing I can truly hope for is that she can begin her healing process now without her mother bothering her. Because that woman doesn't have a compassionate bone in her body. Even as SeolHyun delivered her speech, she didn't show any kind of emotion and when she was done she just sat there, mocking her. That woman does not deserve any kind of attention. She craves for the fear SeolHyun feels towards her, she needs it to thrive on. This was the last time. SeolHyun will not fear her any more. 

We make our way back to the car. Seolhyun hasn't looked back even once to see. She just heads straight into the car and sits down in her seat. "Please drive me back to the hotel", she asks me and I comply. This must all be harder on her than she's letting on. The one thing about SeolHyun is that she never shows how she's really feeling in difficult situations. She keeps it hidden and tries to tell herself she is okay. 

We get back to the hotel and go up to her room. Doctor Kim is giving us some space to calm down and recollect ourselves. They'll have a session later on, to talk about what went down today. And how she's feeling about it all. I can't be present for that since it's classified. I can only be with her now. I shut the door behind us and she turns to face me. 

"Are you okay?" I ask her in all sincerity. She shakes her head and tears well up in her eyes. I close the gap between us and take her into my arms to comfort her. My right hand strokes up and down her back to reassure her. The other hand is on her waist, keeping her close to my chest. She finally lets go of everything and cries into my shirt. I don't care about the stains it will leave, the only thing that matters is SeolHyun feeling better and being able to let go. Her cries vibrate through my chest, causing me to cry a little too. The pain in her cries are undeniable and I feel with her. This is finally coming to an end. She can move on after this. 

In the end her cries die down a little and I guide her to the bed. We sit down, she's still holding on to me as if I'm her lifeline. Her hands are making fists in my shirt as she finally lifts up her head. Her big brown eyes are red rimmed and looking into mine. There's something in them telling me so much, telling me how much she cares for me. Maybe not love, but she cares so much and appreciates me so much. 

"Thank you", she chokes out and I shake my head at her. There is nothing to really thank me for in the first place. I am here because I want to be here, not because I have to. And that's the moment I know. I know I'm in love with her. I know I love her more than anything on this planet. But it is way too early in our relationship to say those words. She'll be scared off by them. I'm sure of it. 

"It's fine", I whisper back and kiss her forehead. She gives me a little smile before lifting her head. Her lips meet mine softly. There's something about her soft lips that makes my head swarm with thoughts I should not be having. This is also the second time in a day's time she has taken the initiative. The last time we almost went too far. I almost let it get to that point of no return, but stopped it in time. Only a few seconds more and there would've been no stopping me. I don't want to push her into any of this. 

She moves her lips against mine and slides her arms around my neck. I go crazy with craving and slide my arms around her waist, pulling her closer and closer. Until there is no more space between us. I get the feeling she doesn't want to stop this so I lean her over on her back, so I'm hovering over her on the bed. I hold myself up a little so I won't crush her with my weight. Her tongue slips into my mouth slowly and I play with her while my left hand traces her side, bringing up her shirt just a little. She doesn't stop me so I think it's okay for me to go on. I let my hand slide under her shirt, up and down her bare skin. It's the closest I've ever come to touching her skin. She is as soft as I'd imagined. Her skin is so smooth and I can feel her shiver under my touch a little. I break out kiss.