Day&Night (Wonho) COMPLETED

Nine

Wonho's POV

I purposely pull SeolHyun a little closer before rolling over to lean over her. I don't know why I'm doing it in the first place, but it seems like fun. We're having fun, right? It had been fun a few seconds ago. Her cheeks turn a deep shade of red while she looks up at me with big eyes. There's been a new kind of pull between us ever since we saw each other again. There used to be only a platonic feeling of friendship between us, I considered her as a little sister. This is different, we've both changed in a million ways and it's freaking me out. 

"Uhm, Wonho?" She asks a little unsure and I flash her a smile before getting off. 

"Sorry, got carried away", I take my cap off and ruffle my hair. It's something I do when I'm kind of nervous. Which is what she's making me right now. 

"It was fun though", her smile is shy as she lies back into the grass, staring up at the sky. "It reminds me of how things used to be."

"Do you ever miss it? Home?" I dare to ask and she almost chokes on something. 

"Never." Her jaw is set in a firm line as she doesn't even think twice about it. 

"Not even the nights we used to spend on my roof?" I sigh and lean back into the grass too. 

"Those were the only good thing about that place", she admits silently as she keeps her gaze on the stars. They're all out tonight. 

"I miss them too." I have never admitted this to someone, not even myself. But I do miss them. They were carefree and void of responsibilities. And in some other way they were full of them too. Our lives have never been easy, just look at the predicament we're in now. 

"I'm sorry", she sits up and hugs her knees. Again her top shifts a little and I can see the same marks as before. I'm kind of afraid to ask where they come from. She sure didn't used to have them when we were little. She quickly notices and pulls her top back over them without even glancing at me. 

"Don't ask me, please", she pleads with me while still hugging her knees. Her voice sounds broken as my heart breaks for all the things that happened to her while I wasn't there to protect her. It's my own damn fault that she's so weary of me now.

"You'll tell me in your own time", I say back while reaching for her arm. My hand is warm against her cold skin as she flinches a little. The flinch is not from the cold, it's from the contact. She's always had that, just never with me. I was the only one she didn't flinch from. This is how low I've sunken in her heart. 

"We should get back, Wonho", she gets up, hurriedly, to get away from my touch as fast as she can. 

"Seollie..." I get up too and walk after her. Upon hearing her nickname she stops abruptly. 

"Why do you still use that?" when she turns around I can see hurt all over her face. 

"Because that's who you are to me, Seollie. You're still that girl to me", I plead with her while taking another step to her. 

"Am I really?" Suddenly she is the little girl in front of me again. The one who was always questioning her existence, the one who always ran to me for everything. So unsure of why life had to be this way. 

"That will never change. Of all the things, you can count on that", I put my arms around her without thinking. What's even weirder is she putting hers around me too. We stay engulfed in that embrace for a while. Neither of us wants to pull back as I try to remember a time where this was normal between us. In the end she is the one to end this. While she pulls back I can see the tears still on her cheeks.