If There Is A Light

Chapter 54

A yawn escaped Newt's lips. He had been sitting there for what felt like an eternity, but was realistically probably closer to three or four hours. In front of him laid Alby. He was thankful that whatever they had given to him, seemed to be working. It had been a struggle to watch one of his closest friends wither in so much agony. He prayed that the older boy would make a full recovery and take back his job... He knew that many of the Gladers that seemed to envy the position of power, but if Alby hadn't entrusted him with it he would have never once in a million years stepped up.

It had been Newt's decision to keep Alby under watch 24/7 and he had decided to take that first shift. He was getting tired of making decisions; especially since everyone he made seemed to be the wrong one. He had no idea what he was doing or how Alby was able to keep this place under control. Newt felt like he was singlehandedly sending the Glade to hell in a hand-basket.

"Hey... Ummm I can take over for awhile." Gally eased in and took the stool beside Newt.

He sighed and looked at Gally, "You know why I don't run anymore?"

"Yeah you fell and messed up your leg."

In essence he was right. Newt scoffed. Alby had been the only one to know the truth of everything that had gone on that day. Sure Minho had known that he jumped, but Alby he had confided in. He had told him every last detail. How the color of her eyes intrigued him, they were hazel and specks of brown mixed in with the blue and it was probably the prettiest color he had ever seen. "I jumped. Climbed up to the very tip top and just stepped off."

Gally looked shocked by the news and more so that he was telling him all of this, "Why?"

"Why not? This place was hopeless. No way out and no reason to stay. I was so tired of all of it. Sick of pretending this was the life I wanted, that I was happy. I dreamt of a girl-"

"The one in the box?"

Newt felt slightly bad that the look on his face probably read disgust. Teresa was by no means unsightly... But she was no Ellia. "No! She didn't throw anything at you... In fact I didn't like you very much at all, she talked to you first and I was... Well, honestly I was quite jealous. I fell in love with a figment of my imagination, pathetic right? When I woke up and she wasn't here... I was just sick of this place... This ain't our home Gally. I don't know where is, but this isn't it. Minho thinks they found something..."

"Yeah you and him thought that a lot. Turned out to be nothing. This will be the same." Gally's tone let on that he was clearly annoyed with him, so Newt took his leave. He sighed. Gally was scared, he knew that because so was he. He just hoped Gally wouldn't let this fear get the best of him.