Wonderland (a Kickthepj {PJ Liguori} fanfiction

Chapter 13 (breakdown)

Since I was in PJ's video three months ago, our relationship was growing rapidly. We had been on countless adventures, taken many Starbucks Runs, and filmed several videos. He had even mentioned joining rooms and sleeping together.

"Hey Soph?"

"Yes Al"

"Have you seen PJ?" I rung my hands.

"No, I haven't, but last night he said that he had to run a few errands."

"Alright, I'll just text him. Thanks anyways" I started to sweat.

"Yeah, no worries!"

Since PJ had already left and he didn't even tell me he was leaving, then it was probably a surprise. I have always been keen about surprises, birthdays, and events in general. I hated surprises, Something about not knowing what was going on around me really pisses me off. But it was PJ and we go everywhere together. It's not that I don't trust him, it's that I'm overly attached. I think it's because my parents split up when I was so little and I never got to see my dad, or Sophie for that matter. I've always been that way. My doctor diagnosed me with separation anxiety when I was thirteen. Hopefully PJ would be back soon so I could calm down. He knows that I flip out when he leaves and doesn't tell me! Wow, I need to calm down, why am I so stirred up about this anyways? It's not like he would cheat on me, right? I mean I didn't piss him off or anything, did I? He probably just went to the store! Or maybe the craft shop. Hopefully.

I went ahead and showered and started to get dressed. I dug threw my closet and found a Zelda t-shirt and some jeans. I finished getting ready and went to ask James if he would like to watch a Rugby game with me until PJ got home. Maybe that would distract me.

"Hey James! Wanna watch a game?" I barged into his room.

"Oh hey Alice, you scared me! Shu-"

"Do you know where PJ is?" I interrupted him frantically. I had snapped. I could no longer hold it in.

"What PJ? No h-he didn't-I mean he just went to run uh few errands t-that's all!" He replied nervously.

"James?" I raised one eyebrow. "you know something, don't you?"

"Well I got to go get some fabric from the shops so bye Alice see you later." He stood up and ran past me out of the doorway.

"James get back here" I turned around and scoffed.

"No Alice I got to go now." I herd the front door close.

"Well ok then, now what?" I said to myself. My face was starting to get hot and my hands sweaty.

PJ was being really secretive lately. He was keeping something from me, I knew it. It's like he was locked up in a cage and he was the one with the key. I just hope he is alright and not having a mental breakdown like I am. I love him. I truly love him. I've never meet someone as kind hearted and creatively talented as PJ Liguori. That's why I can't be away from him. I've never been so close to anyone before. What a sweet heart, Well that's what I hoped. He could be out doing anything right now. He could be out with a girl, or at a club, or on a date. No he wouldn't! He just can't do that to me, Can he? I have to snap out of this weird phase! ALICE YOU ARE FINE! PJ LOVES YOU, HE TELLS YOU ALL THE TIME! After all, PJ made the first move. What he did at the airport and on the first Starbucks run, That WAS a move, right?

I had been in deep thought for about twenty minutes, still standing in James room, when I snap back into reality to hear PJ walking in the door.

"PJ PJ PJ! YOU'RE HOME!" I shout as I jump down the stair case. A wave of emotion flying over me like a dark storm cloud.

"Woah Alice! Hey I'm home." He replied with his hands behind his back. He looked nervous. Was everything ok?

I reached in to hug him but he ran off.

"Hold on a second I have to uh run to my room real fast!" He rambled running to his room, hiding whatever he was holding in his hands. He wasn't making eye contact with me. That also pissed me off.

"Um o-okay." I sigh and plop down on the couch, my face was red, I was mad. Not just mad, I was FLAMED.

"Ok, I'm back!" PJ said as he ran down the steps. "Woah, Al, are you alright?" He stopped in his tracks.

"No, PJ, I'm not alright." I yelled back at him. His expression switched from 'happy to see me' to 'Alice, what the hell is wrong, I'm scared"

"What? Alice I-"

"Stop PJ. You know what happens to me when you just disappear! Why do you always just leave? Where have you been going all the time lately?" I yelled, pacing around the lounge.

"Alice! Just stop for a second! Calm down!"

"DONT YOU DARE TELL ME TO CALM DOWN!"

"ALICE YOU ARE BEING UNREASONABLE! IVE GIVEN YOU ALL IVE GOT!"

"PJ. JUST STOP. I-IM DONE-I JUST CANT."

PJ snapped. "YOU CANT WHAT ALICE? YOU CANT CALM DOWN? YOU CANT STAY AWAY FROM ME?" He paused. "YOU CANT DEAL WITH A MAN WHO IS TRYING TO LOVE YOU?"

His words felt like a knife to the side. I whimper and start to cry "yeah. That's the one." I run to my room and grab my car keys and my phone. I collided with Sophie as I stormed out of my room, waterfalls still flowing from my blue eyes.

"Al? Al! Are you alright? What's wrong?" She said as I ran down the hall.

I stopped and looked back at her. "I apparently can't deal with a man who is trying to love me."

"Oh hell no!" She shouts and runs to PJs room.

-SOPHIE AND PJ'S CONVERSATION AS ALICE STORMS OUT OF THE HOUSE, AND DRIVES OFF-

"PJ LIGUORI! YOU ARE A DEAD MAN! Sophie yells and bangs on his door with her fist. "OPEN UP ASSHOLE!" She was almost more upset than I was.

She walked into his room to find PJ lying in the floor crying into a pillow.

"WHERE ON GOD'S EARTH HAVE YOU BEEN? YOU HAVE BEEN DRIVING ALICE MAD! YOU KNOW GOOD AND DAMN WELL HOW SHE GETS WHEN YOU JUST VANISH LIKE THAT!"

"Sophie, Just stop please." He whimpered threw his tears "I-I was getting an Engagement ring. I was planning to take her out to that clearing by the river and purpose to her tonight."

"Woah, Peej! That's awesome!"

"Yeah, that's what I had hoped, but now she's gone." He cried throwing his head back. "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?"

He had never been so pissed off at himself before.

"Well, I better go get her!" He said wiping his face and sitting up. "She is short and has bad knees, she couldn't have gotten far."

"She took her car keys"

"Well, I best hurry then."

"I'll come with y-" Sophie announced.

"No you won't, you will stay here. I caused this and now I'm going to fix this." PJ said, tears still streaming down his face, and ran out of the house. No phone. No keys. Nothing.