Nightmares (ON HOLD)

Weeks later...(7)

I stare at the envelope in my hands, taking note of every single detail on it. In the background, I hear the others complaining that Hunter hasn't shown up yet and how they have to go soon. I jump when I feel a hand touch my shoulder; the hand immediately retracts, and I whip my head around.

Relief runs through me when I see Parker with his hands up in surrender. "Whoa..", he lets the word slide, and I roll my eyes. I put my focus back on the envelope that determines my future. In the corner of my eye, I see Parker sit down next to me on the steps. I feel his gaze burning through me "What?", I say sighing. He shakes his head and diverts his gaze to Jasmine screaming into the phone, presumably talking to Hunter.

"Have you spoke to him lately?", he asks me, and I scoff. "Last time I checked he told me not to talk to him or see him", I state, and he nods his head. "He hasn't been himself these days", he tells me, and I get up annoyed. "Look Parker I don't know if you've noticed but Hunter and I aren't friends. Heck we don't even talk without there being a screaming match, he doesn't care for me, and I don't care for him", I point out. He gets up too and stands in front of me "Nicole I don't want to fight, and I'm pretty sure your still mad at me from what happened weeks ago", he questions in a somewhat calm voice.

I roll my eyes "I'm not mad just ugh...", I take a deep breath and calm down. "Just worried about what's it's in this envelope", I admit, and Parker envelops me in his arms.

I breathe in the smell of his cologne and try to refrain from coughing into his chest by holding my breath.

The last few weeks has been weird, to say the least. After the incident with the woman or man, I went to stay with Jasmine for a while because Liam had to visit his grandparents for a few weeks and my parents said that's it's fine. The others found out what happened with Jasmine, and they got mad at me for not telling them. I don't even know why I didn't tell them the day we were at school. Something was telling me not to say them and whatever that something is has caused a major rift between Ava and me. She won't even talk to Jasmine or me.

The sound of a door swinging open and hitting the wall with a hard impact startles me and turn my body in that direction. I lock eyes with Hunter and immediately regret it when I feel a sudden invasion of privacy. As if he knows what's running through my head, all my thoughts are known in a second. I look away and walk on the green grass where the others are sitting on the lawn chairs.

We are all currently at my house to open up our college letters together. Since we didn't tell each other which college, we applied.

"No matter what happens we are always going to stay in touch okay?", Jasmine asks us, anxiety on her face. We all nod in response and open up our envelopes. I hear Jasmine scream in excitement followed by a few exaggerated 'yes's'.

I slowly slide out the paper and unfold it. I begin to read it, and I jump out of my chair when I read that I got accepted. "Okay by the looks of it, it seems as though everyone got good news. Now to tell everyone where you're...", I stop Jasmine before she can continue. "No", I tell her, and she raises her eyebrows.

"I mean don't say the college only the area where it is", I suggest. "You know to make things interesting; then we can maybe try and find each other. Sounds more fun don't you guys think?". They all look at me like I have grown two heads. They look at each other and then look back at me "Nicole this was your idea what's the sudden change of mind?", Liam asks, and I open my mouth to say something, but nothing comes out.

"I...I.. don't know...", I say in almost a whisper rubbing at my temples. "You know what why don't you guys..um..", I roll back my shoulders "uh tell his each other, and I'm just going to uh...", I struggle to find my words. What's up with me?

I release a breath "going to get something to drink", I excuse myself and try and ignore the stares from all of them. I wave a goodbye, and I start to walk away "wait I'm coming wi-", Jasmine tries to stop me, but I spin around and put out my hand to stop her.

"Alone", I emphasise, and a look of shock mixed with hurt runs across her face, and I regret it straight away.

"I'm sorry", I say under my breath and head inside. What is happening with me right now, why am I acting this way?

I don't know why but something is telling me to say these things and make these decisions.

I came up with this whole 'don't tell each other where you're applying to until we get our results' and now that we got them I have this urge not to say them and not want them to say me or anyone.

That if they do going to happen, and I don't know what but ugh I'm so confused.

I open the fridge and grab out a bottle of water and chug the whole thing. Throwing the empty bottle away I rub my right temple trying to get rid of a headache I'm having in that area of my head.

I hear the creak of the floor boards, and my head shoots up. Ava is standing a few feet away from me giving me a small smile "you okay?", She asks somewhat shyly. I take a deep breath "yeah I'm fine. Just a headache", I tell her, and she slowly nods her head. We just look at each other a while waiting for the other to say something.

After a while, Ava gives up and turns to walk away, but I call out her name before she can leave. "Ava I'm sorry for not telling you, it's been a weird couple days for me", I admit, and she just nods her head before leaving the room.

Great what I have I done? I lost a friend, and my other friends think I'm going crazy. I just need a break from this madness and everyone around me.

And I need to leave this house; it's disturbingly cold in here.

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Edited.

I would say this is just a filler chapter not really a proper proper chapter but they are coming. I am having severe writers block and so far this is the best I have managed.