Silver Constellation

Chapter 6: Last Goodbye

< Spirit >

I look around slowly. The darkness seemingly to close in around me. With my vision blurry all I see is a shadowy figure approaching me. As the mystery creature comes closer I oddly recognize him.

The pup who chased me and flirted with me throughout my childhood stood in front of my dazed eyes. But as I tried to recall his name my thoughts were interrupted by the figure growing and changing into a wolf my size and age. No longer a pup he opened his yellow eyes which stared into mine. As he started to speak I finally recalled his name...

Soul...

Memories and visions flooded before my eyes. Blood. Corpses of the ones I loved. Once happy with the company of others.

But that was past...

I was alone...

But could he change this?

Why was he here?

He finally spoke...

"You left us..."

I tried to reply to him but nothing came...

No words...

No sound...

Just silence...

"You left us..." He said again

"You left us to die...Its all your fault..."

Another voice finally spoke my thoughts.

"But you're not dead! You're standing in front of me right now!"

I felt a strange feeling on my muzzle and I realized the voice was my own. I was about to say more but before I knew what was happening more figures approached. A white wolf with crystal eyes in who I knew to be my childhood friend.

Luna...

Another wolf. Black as night in who I could only guess was my brother and following was a brown tinted black wolf.

My father.

But that was impossible!

I saw them die! All of them!

Or...

Did. I?

My memories start fading as the creatures appear in a circle around me. I try to scream but again my voice no longer obeys my command.

"You are not one of us" My father mumbled.

"You left us Spirit... How could you? I thought we were friends! I thought we made a promise!" Luna cried in tears.

Tears welled in my eyes as their words were spoken. They no longer became a series of individual cries but voice in my head as I closed my eyes shut.

"Shut up!" I cried as a tear streamed from my eyes.

"You left us"

"It's all your fault"

"We could have been happy"

"You killed us"

"It's all your fault"

"Your fault."

"Shut up!" I cried again. Desperate for the voices to leave me alone.

I once thought I'd never be alone...

"We could have been a family Spirit..."

But in that moment...

"We died because of you"

I realized that in truth...

"It's all your fault"

I was always alone...

"I thought we were your friends..."

Always afraid...

"Your family..."

Always afraid of what they might think about me...

"But if that was true. You would have helped us"

Always afraid of being alone...

"Wouldn't you?"

Afraid of getting in trouble...

"But you didn't."

Afraid...

"Because you don't care."

Of...

"And you never did."

Being...

"You let us die."

Myself.

"ENOUGH!" I bark. My voice coming out stronger than I ever imagined possible.

My family... No. The creatures... The ghosts... Whatever they are... Back away in sync.

"I do care and it's not my fault! This is not my fault! Its Bloodnines! It is not and never was my fault!" I listen to my own voice bark in anger at the creatures. I had enough of lies.

The creatures take another step back.

"And YOU are not real." I turn to face my best friend. "Luna, I saw your dead corpse. As much as I'd love for you to be real... For us to play together once more... To be the best of friends like we used to..." I feel tears well in my eyes. "You're not real..."

She starts to fade into dust and a gush of wind blows her ashs away. I fight back the tears.

I turn to my father.

"Father, I respect you and I always have. You are my guidance and my support. But I saw your brother kill you. I made your last wish proud. I'm safe. I'm alive. But... You are not. I love you father. I wish to see you again but goodbye for now." My voice trails into a whisper as he to turns to dust and as the wind blows his ashes away I whisper one last time. "I love you..."

Just two more goodbyes to face.

I turn to my dearest brother and the little runt who I consider family.

"I cannot prove that either of you are dead." My heart skips a beat in hope that maybe they really are real... Although I know that's a lie. "But even if your alive, out there in the world somewhere... You're not here. Although I really wish you were. But just like your sister..." I nod to Soul, he smiles half-heartedly at me. "And just like our father..." I then nod to Killer who also gives me a half-hearted smile. I smile back at the two as a tear escapes. "You aren't real... I love you both and I wish to see you again someday..."

Their bodies- just like the rest- turn to dust and I whisper a "Goodbye" before the wind blows their ashes away and light seeps through into my world once again.

I stand on a lily pad and I see my mother walk on the water toward me. "I am proud of you. You have shown courage in saying goodbye to those you love. But do not worry, I am not like them. I wish for you to move on with your life my dear, make your own choices and be free. We all love you and hope you'll be happy."

She fades away into ashes like the rest and my surroundings turn grey and I look in front of me to see a black and a white wolf giving each other a hug desperately. The two reunited. The symbol of balance.

"Goodbye my friends" I whisper to myself before allowing myself to close my eyes and fall into darkness...

It was just a dream.

I started crying writing this chapter. Its so sad... :( Comment and give me your feedback! I hope I'm not the only one crying right now...