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The Day That Changed My View On Life

So today I found out a disturbing piece of news. I ate my twin in the womb.

Yes, I said it. No, I'm not bullshitting. How'd I find this out you ask? Well you see, my mother had a diary of when she was pregnant, to when I was eight years old.

I found it when clearing out the spare room and decided to take a quick peek.

12/3/97

these babies are seriously killing me. I can't wait to have these little bugger's out of me. Clementina and Romulus are there names. Clementina I can already tell is going to be a little ratbag. She is already causing all the problems. Romulus is being a sweetie pie. I have a nagging feeling that Romumus is going to be a mummy's boy. So back to today. I was eating my breakfast, when suddenly two little feet just just pushed me from the table and fall on the floor! It was horrific!

What? I wondered. I don't have a twin! Theres just me! No twin brother! saying I was confused would be the understatement of the century.

A million thoughts started to run through my mind. Miscarriage? Adoption? Stolen from the crib at the hospital?

I read on and found the entry that answered everything.

16/5/97

I was at the hospital today. For my checkup.They said one of my babies weren't there! I said "What, did one just up and leave? Because of you think that, I want a new midwife."

She said "No! no miss, I'm afraid to tell you that the other twin has eaten the other one.

"WHAT!" I screamed in outrage.

"I'm sorry miss." the nurse said.

'"What one."

"Sorry? I don't quite get what you mean."

"What twin! what twin was eaten."

"Oh! I'm afraid that it was the male that was eaten."

That was the moment I threw up all over my husband.

When I finished that, disgust filled my body and I lean over and vomited all over the nurse.

Now of course she said that my baby boy had been 'eaten' in much more technical term's but I wasn't exactly listening after my lunch made a re-apperance. All I heard was something about the baby being absorbed or something.

I had stopped reading at this point and was thouroughly disturbed. Romulus. The name kept running through my mind on repeat. I didn't know what to do. Do I keep it to myself? Confront my mother? I honestly didn't know what I was going to do.

Despite what my mind was telling me, I went to read another entry.

22/7/97

My baby girl was one week ago yesterday. Clementina Ramola Attia Di Caltanissetta. It didn't feel right not to have a piece of Romulus with her at all times. afterall, he is part of her now. I thought I might not like her, she took away my Romulus. But I do like her, no, love her. I find myseld mourning the loss of Romulus with her in the world now. Someday, I may even have another child.

This last entry made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. But it didn't quench my guilt. I had caused my mother so much suffering. She mourned the loss of my twin brother after all these years. I felt a trail of  moisture make its way down my face. 

"Tina? Are you up there?" My mother hollered up the staircase.

I didn't answer for fear that my voice would betray me and show signs of me crying.

"Tina? Darling are you-" My mother said but stopping once getting a glance at what was in my hands.

"Mum, I'm so sorry." I blubbered to her.

Mum Immediatly crossed the room and pulled me into a bonecrushing hug.

"Darling, Don't worry about it! You can't be held responsible for something you did as a fetus! Honey, why are you still crying?"

"I, I caused you so much misery. You were expecting two darling babies to dote on and-" My mother cut me off saying,

"Honey, that was so long ago. I'm over it! I have you! My beautiful daughter." 

"I-" I started

"Look honey, I had other things to deal with. looking after you, teach your father english, teach you english and italian, we were in the middle of buying a house, really, I haven't thought about Romulus since your birthday."

"Well I, I guess."

"Good, now go chop some onions. Thats the reason that I came up any way."

"Okay mum."

I left the room and stood just outside the door.

"Oh Romulus, I haven't thought about you in so long, Your just like a distant memory now" She said. 

I heard her make her way across the room so I quickly scarpered.

"You getting started yet Tina?" My mother said to me.

"Yes mum just washing my hands." I replied.

As my mother and me cooked dinner I realised that it me and my mother were okay. We were going to be okay.

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So I don't know much about a twin eating its twin in the womb. It's never been something I have actually taken the time to read more than one article about. so yeah... chow bebez