Don't Let The Darkness Consume You

Chapter 4

Raph's POV

It was an accident. I told them that, I thought they knew! I thought they believed me, but I guess I was wrong. I got up off the bean bag chair, forcing myself to stay calm. I walked slowing to my bedroom, not even glancing back at my so called brothers. Once I got to my room I slammed my door shut. I slide down my door with tears in my eyes, crossing my arms and resting them on my knees. I couldn't keep it in anymore and the tears started slowly rolling down my face. I tucked my head into my arms, muffling the sound even more.

'Your brothers hate you.' Said the voice in my head. 'They wish you were never born. You're useless, weak, stupid. You're a disgrace to your family. You're a monster. Leo will never love you.'

The words hurt more than I ever thought they would, but they were all true. Leo will never love me, I'm a freak. I couldn't take it anymore, the words were pounding in my head like a hammer. The truth was too much. I had to get rid of it, I had to clear my head of the pain. I pulled out my T-phone, searching how to get rid of the pounding in my head when I came across the perfect way.

I put my phone away, pulling my sais out of their holsters. I removed my wrappings and held the sharp side of my sai to my wrist. I pushed lightly, dragging it across my delicate skin. Once I removed the weapon and saw the blood dripping onto the carpet, I felt slightly better. Although I knew it wasn't enough. I pushed harder dragging it across my skin harshly, watching as the crimson liquid flowed to the ground. I did it again, and again, and again, each time feeling better than the last. I was starting to get lightheaded so I stopped, promising myself that I would continue later. I felt so much better than I did before, like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I rewrapped my wrist, making sure no blood could be seen. I then cleaned up the mess I had made, climbing into my bed and falling fast asleep.