Don't Let The Darkness Consume You

Chapter 18

Raph's POV

After Leo kissed me, I wasn't sure what to think. I know Leo doesn't love me. He was just calming me down, but the way he kissed me said something different. It wasn't a brotherly kiss. I needed to get away from everyone, clear my head. I wandered the sewers thinking about the kiss, thinking about Leo. My heart believes that Leo loves me, but my mind doesn't. Leo knows about my cuts, my scars. The kiss was probably out of pity. He didn't want to be the reason his brother killed himself. It doesn't matter if I die, as long as it's not his fault.

I have to go back to the lair eventually, but not quite yet. I still need to be alone with my thoughts. I sat down on a sewer pipe, just thinking.

Leo's POV

It's been three hours since I kissed Raph and he's still not back yet. I'm getting really worried. Why did I kiss him? I'm so stupid. He probably hates me now. I don't know what I would do if Raph hated me. I know I haven't been the best brother, but I'm just so confused.

I was ripped out of my thoughts when Raph entered the lair. He didn't look at me, just continued walking towards his room.

"He hates me." I whispered, sinking into the couch.

"Who hates you?" Donnie asked from behind me.

I jumped a little before answering, there was no use in lying to my smartest brother. He would figure it out eventually. "Raph." I said sadly.

"Why would Raph hate you?" He asked, quite confused.

I mumbled my answer, not wanting to admit to what I had done.

"What?" Donnie asked, not hearing my answer. I sighed, getting up from the couch. I started walking towards my room, when I turned around.

"Are you coming, or not?" I questioned, wanting to talk in private. Donnie got up from his spot on the couch, following me. Once we arrived in my room, I shut the door and locked it.

I sat on my bed, avoiding Donnie's question.

"Why would he hate you?" Donnie asked again.

"Because I love him." I whispered, as quiet as I could. I looked up to see Donnie's eye widen slightly.

"Really?" He questioned.

"Yeah." I answered. "You think it's disgusting, don't you?" Tears started forming in my eyes.

"No, Leo, I don't." I looked at him questioningly. "We're not blood related, so it doesn't matter. It's ok to be gay."

"Are you sure?" I whispered.

"Absolutely." He answered, wrapping his arms around me. "Remember Leo, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here to listen.

"Thanks, Donnie." I said, hugging him back.