(Joey's POV)
"JOEY! This is serious! Are you kiddin or not?" Luke presses.
"No." I whisper.
"Wow. I'd never have expected that."
"Yeah. I know. Guess what else!" I want to cut out my tongue just so I don't say what I know I'm about to say.
"What Joey?"
"He cuts too." Drunk Joey doesn't keep secrets for anyone.
"Are you sure? How would you even know?"
"I saw them." Silence fills the car to the point I think I'm going to drown in it.
(Shane's POV)
I'm numb again. I don't even feel angry or happy or sad. I am just hollow and empty. I hurt Joey, saw Lisa, and lied to my mom's face all in the span of a few hours. I don't even have anything to live for. Oh that's right except 4 million people who depend on me to make them laugh. I always tell them to be happy and I can't even follow my own advice. I look to my right and grab my phone on the table next to me. I switch to camera.
"What's up you guys? So I'm in the hospital for food poisoning and have on this lovely paper gown! Ahhhh the air feels good on the buttcheeks! Anyway, I'm not going to be making a video anytime soon because of my situation. I'm real sorry though. I'll see you soon! Bye!"
I'm so fake.
(Joey's POV)
"This is your stop." Luke says pulling up to the house I share with Sawyer. I stagger out of the car and fumble for my keys. I swing open the door and crash on to couch. My head pounds and my body aches. I replay Shane in my head. Over and over and over again.
(Shane's POV)
I have decided. I'm just not going to live. At least not a life with all of the things worth living for like laughter and love. I will just refuse to talk or eat or open my heart up, just to have it smashed. Those hospital people can pump whatever they want into my arm, but once that person has lost their will to live there isn't a thing they can do. Besides, I've already scared Joey away. There's really no one else who can change my mind.
I mentally say goodbye to all my family members. One by one, releasing them from my heart. I think of Joey's sea green eyes. His swooped hair and striped shirts. Then I let him fly away from me. I picture myself chaining up my heart. Barricading it from any dive-bombs. I fall asleep.
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I know this chapter was short and you may've been waiting buuut I have stupid school :( I started a YouTube Instagram account! You can go follow it if you want: @the3eyebrows
~Lauren<3
