I'm 12-16 With a Mental Illness

Story #3

Okay. I am fourteen years old with Depression, Bulimia, and a little PTSD. (I got strangled and I don't want to go into more detail than that).

All of my "depressing thoughts" began around age seven, when my parents started fighting all the time, and my classmates found out I cry easily. Since I was so young there really wasn't a way to escape all that negativity.

When I was eleven, I found out what self-harm was, (thanks tumblr -.-) and thought (very stupidly) that it would help my situation. And I thought it did, but really it made everything worse.

When I was twelve I had a lot of confusion with my sexuality, and at the end of that year, I came out as a lesbian. That, I realised, was a terrible idea. I was chased down and beat up by my classmates and even locked in a locker. They also threw rocks at me.

Anyway when I was thirteen I had a wonderful girlfriend and everything was great, but she lied to me and said she has Dissociative Identity Disorder (she didn't) and started being really abusive, telling me that I was fat and worthless. It really hurt me, you know? I pretty much put all my trust in this girl. Anyway, one day she told me that I should just kill myself. And that's when I attempted suicide.

It was terrible for me, and my family, and I really don't want to go into detail. I spent a lot of time on social media during my recovery, and I found The Butterfly Effect, and it really helped me get my life together. It helped me have a more positive outlook on life, and made me realise that yes, my life isn't the greatest, but if I were to kill myself, I will never have the chance to make it the greatest. But not to worry, I'm perfectly happy now!