I'm 12-16 With a Mental Illness

Story #18

i turned 13 this month, and i have clinical depression, cognitive agoraphobia, slight undiagnosed eating disorders, insomnia, panic attacks, anxiety, and ADD.i was diagnosed with depression just last year, and my mom decided to sign me up for therapy, but i disliked the therapist because she was too cheery. my dad never has done anything to help with my feelings, though my mom says he is welcome to, and he spends most of his time drinking and laying on the couch, doing absolutely nothing. my mom had to support our family and we are behind on the taxes, which has been causing me(and my mom) a lot of stress lately. i self harm frequently, and i attempted to kill myself two months ago via kitchen knife, but thankfully i made a lot of noise and woke up my mom. though i was diagnosed with depression and other things only a short time ago, i have been very sad for a long time. it started when i was in 4th grade, as i started questioning my sexuality and eventually said i was gay. i got made fun of a lot, but i didn't tell my parents. in late fourth grade, my cousin sexually harassed me(i'd prefer not to go into detail) and i also did not tell my mom about this. i get angry at my parents frequently for no apparent reason and i often have trouble talking about personal things due to the fact that if my mom keeps pressing something, i usually end up screaming and throwing things. in 6th grade, i started questioning my sexuality again and decided i was bisexual. this year, 7th grade, i have made up my mind on asexual/demiromantic. I'm doing poorly in school and the fact that i am a girl with short hair often makes comments like "faggot" plentiful, though i have stated many times i am in fact not gay. also, it's a very rude word. nobody at my school seems to be into he stuff I'm into, and i feel isolated and alone. there have been a few times that i considered attempting suicide due to a really bad day or a bad experience. i can't sleep at night. Wattpad has helped

me so much, and reading stories about people that are going through similar things as me makes me feel like I'm not so alone in the world. I've learned a lot about mental illnesses and the way the people that have these illnesses think, and that people with the same things as me are great to talk to to try to feel better sometimes. my mom has signed me up for a new therapist, and I'm hoping and praying that someday soon i might just be okay.

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Remember every word has the power to hurt someone. Sorry this account has become inactive or its taking forever for a reply back, we're people too and we have lives. But we're still here, I'm wolfess21 and if you ever need to talk about anything at all just PM me