I'm 12-16 With a Mental Illness

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-13-Depression/Anxiety-My depression started when I was in third grade, so I was about eight years old. Since then, I have had depression on and off, and have realized I have anxiety as of this year. However, my main part of this story is the one time I seriously considered suicide. It was two years ago when I was 11. I was home alone, my parents and sister were shopping. Now, my mother is a pharmacist, therefore there is always some sort of pill or meds in the house. I had been waiting for an opportunity to take my life for about a month or two. I knew where all the medicine was. I was holding a bottle of pills, ready to take them all at once and get it over with, when I began to realize things. I realized that if I did this I would never get to see my little sister grow up. I realized my best friend would be severely affected by this if I carried through because she also has a history of suicidal tendencies. I realized my family would never get over it. I realized all the problems I had were fixable. I realized I would never get to publish that book I was writing or become the artist I've always wanted to be. I realized that if I did this, there would be no reversing this action. I realized if I did this, I would have no future. And so, I put the pills down, and watched a Disney movie. Since then I have told no one my story. The good thing is my depression is mostly gone now, but I still wanted to share my story. I want to tell anyone who may be considering what I was going to do or anyone who is feeling the same way I did, IT WILL GET BETTER. I promise. -They help me. They remind me that I'm not going through this alone. -They have educated me in many certain areas. -Without them I wouldn't know about my anxiety, so yes.