I'm 12-16 With a Mental Illness

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I'm 14 years old. I have suffered from severe depression, social anxiety, generalized anxiety, phobic anxiety, panic attacks, more anxiety and I have had run ins with eating disorders not otherwise specialised and have occasionally hallucinated images and voices. I started self harming when I was 7 and am still struggling today. I have had these problems since the age of 4 due to bullying,neglect, abuse and much more that started when I was born. grew up confused who my father was. He left when I was born and ever since my mum has brought home abusive men, each one worse than the last. As a baby my mums first boyfriend was a pedophile and rapist. He locked my sisters and l in our room for days only coming in to occasionally feed us. One night we were tied into bed so we couldn't wake him up. None of us were old enough to know if we were taken advantage of. In my 14 years l have been victim to my home set on fire, bullets through my bedroom window l endured 7 years in which my ex-step dad repeatedly tried killing my mum, severe bullying since the age of 2, arguing every single night, my mothers alcoholism, losing two of my siblings who moved in with my dad, my mothers rape, more attempted murder and a lot more that I'm not ready to even think about. I first attempted suicide when I was eight. I stole 10 of my mums antidepressants and hoped for the best, it didn't work. Since then I have attempted over 55 times. As a result no now suffer from physical health issues, for example I have a tic disorder and can't control my facial
muscles. I found out that I suffered from a mental illness by reading other people's stories on wattpad. I've made friends here who have saved my life more times than I can even count and still support me to this day
In September l was admitted onto a psychiatric ward after attempting to take my life. have been discharged but l am still not back in school after having a serious episode. If I wasn't able to communicate with my friends and read other stories about being detained l would still be in the hospital or even dead.

I think as long as mental illnesses/ eating disorders/self harm aren't I'm 14 years old. I have suffered from severe depression, social anxiety, generalized anxiety, phobic anxiety, panic attacks, more anxiety and I have had run ins with eating disorders not otherwise specialised and have occasionally hallucinated images and voices. I started self harming when I was 7 and am still struggling today. I have had these problems since the age of 4 due to bullying,neglect, abuse and much more that started when I was born. grew up confused who my father was. He left when I was born and ever since my mum has brought home abusive men, each one worse than the last. As a baby my mums first boyfriend was a pedophile and rapist. He locked my sisters and l in our room for days only coming in to occasionally feed us. One night we were tied into bed so we couldn't wake him up. None of us were old enough to know if we were taken advantage of. In my 14 years l have been victim to my home set on fire, bullets through my bedroom window l endured 7 years in which my ex-step dad repeatedly tried killing my mum, severe bullying since the age of 2, arguing every single night, my mothers alcoholism, losing two of my siblings who moved in with my dad, my mothers rape, more attempted murder and a lot more that I'm not ready to even think about. I first attempted suicide when I was eight. I stole 10 of my mums antidepressants and hoped for the best, it didn't work. Since then I have attempted over 55 times. As a result no now suffer from physical health issues, for example I have a tic disorder and can't control my facial
muscles. I found out that I suffered from a mental illness by reading other people's stories on wattpad. I've made friends here who have saved my life more times than I can even count and still support me to this day
In September l was admitted onto a psychiatric ward after attempting to take my life. have been discharged but l am still not back in school after having a serious episode. If I wasn't able to communicate with my friends and read other stories about being detained l would still be in the hospital or even dead. I think as long as mental illnesses/ eating disorders/self harm aren't promoted anyone should be able to read and write about it as they please. l do think there needs to be a warning that it may include self harm etc but it shouldn't have to be rated mature. We shouldn't talk about these issues in hushed voices, the world needs to know what is happening. Every year suicide rates are rising and no one says a word and when we do our books are removed due to mature content even if its a sipromoted anyone should be able to read and write about it as they please. l do think there needs to be a warning that it may include self harm etc but it shouldn't have to be rated mature. We shouldn't talk about these issues in hushed voices, the world needs to know what is happening. Every year suicide rates are rising and no one says a word and when we do our books are removed due to mature content even if its a simple comment like "If you want to talk about self harm or any other issues you can talk to me.

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