KanamexZero

Amnesia

I had yawned for the millionth time it seemed after walking into my room not five minutes ago. I hadn't gotten much sleep, since I had walked and cried so much I hadn't realized that it was already nearing the early hours of the morning. By the time I'd gotten in about an hour and a half of sleep, the sun just started to peak over the trees and arouse me from my slumber. I splashed cold water as I tried to freshen up my look, even though the look was very common for me.

Then, I began putting on my uniform, locating my Bloody Rose that I hadn't used in a while, and slipping it into its holster otherwise known as my pocket. Once I did all that, I slipped on my shoes and laced them up securely so they wouldn't be s tripping hazard if I had to run and chase after someone. Finally, I walked out of my room. I realized that I was either frightfully early, or boringly late, and I wouldn't even go in if it were the latter. However I kept walking, ignoring the fact that no one else seemed to be around.

"Dammit." I said under my breath as I neared the classroom doors. I'd forgotten that we didn't have class the day after the ball. I sighed and turned around, but was met with the presence of Kaname. I rolled my eyes, a common thing I did to him. "I don't know where she is." I said naturally.

"I wasn't going to ask that." He said. "Are you okay?" He asked quietly.

"Of course I am." I replied normally.

"You look like you haven't slept in days. I can tell that you didn't get much if any sleep last night." He informed.

"I always look this way, you always tell me so. It's because of night patrols, that's the only reason I don't bother to sleep." I said.

"Zero I would like to talk to you about last night." Kaname said to me, earning me a sigh.

"What was it that made your night so bad? Was it the horrible lighting, the handmade decorations, or the inconsistent music? Please let me know so I can make sure it is there next year." I replied in my normal 'I don't like you, get the fuck away from me' tone that I always used with him.

"It wasn't any of that, that part was great. What I'm ta-"

"Then you have no reason to tell me that you want to talk about the ball." I said and turned to walk away.

"Are we really over?" He asked, causing me to stop and turn to him. "Is there really nothing between us anymore?" I looked at him with concern. I set my hand on his shoulder, him looking at me with hope.

"Drinking, at such a young age, could be a very dangerous thing. I think that you should lay off the liquor for a while and maybe your thoughts will become more clear." I said and began to turn away again. But he pulled me back and kissed me once, a quick one that was just a peck on the lips. I glared at him. "See? Even the alcohol is starting to cloud your judgement on even who I am." And then I started walking again.

"Are you really just going to throw this all away and leave me," his voice cracked. "And leave me to believe that you never truly loved me?" He asked, causing me to stop. I turned my head to the side, where he could see my left cheek over my shoulder but I wasn't looking at him.

"I seriously think you should lay off the drinks for a while." And then I began walking.

"Please don't go that way, if any way, go the way you came." He said, trying to advert my path. I rolled my eyes and brushed past him. "Zero I'm head of board." He said as a last resort.

"Congrats. Sorry I missed it." I said and kept walking. However when I walked around the building I regretted doing so. It was the rose garden.

All of them, every single rose was dead and withered. Some of them had fallen off along with some spare leaves and other things. It looked like it had been abandoned. I turned to Kaname who I seen was wiping his eyes, almost as if he might be crying. But I knew better.

"What happened?" I asked, breaking the long and sad silence. He exhaled once, presumably trying to make sure his voice was strong.

"These roses grew on hope. Hope that you would never stop loving me, and that I would never lose you. I thought it was the one thing that would keep the alive forever. When you said that I could take that job, I lost some of it. Just then, I lost it all when you gave me an answer on never loving m-"

"Don't you ever," I began in a whispered tone in fear of my voice not working. "Don't you ever think that I did not love you. I will love you till the ends of the earth, I will love you with every part of my being. I will love your smile that you only had for me, I will love your touch that only I felt, I will love the feeling you gave me when you said my name after you said you loved me so many times. I will love you, forever. And I don't know if you know this or not, but forever is a really long fucking time. And I cried so hard over you because letting you go is the hardest thing I've ever done. I will never have to feel that again, wanna know why? Because I will never feel this way about anyone. You have all of this heart of stone.

"You have every inch of me, my life belongs to you and if you were the one to take it I wouldn't mind." I said, voice trembling until it finally broke with my last humorless laugh. "The only reason I'm upset now is because you didn't try for me. I don't care that you didn't run after me. I don't care that you didn't scream my name until your vocal cords felt like they were bleeding, because believe me that's easier than you think. I don't care about any of that though, what I do care about, is the fact that you didn't find a way for it to work. You always do. You should've begged them to let you keep me, you should've told them to shove it up their ass if you couldn't have me, and do you realize how selfish you're make me sound? Fuck, Kaname I. Love. You. End of story, that's all there is to it." I said, breathing hard at the end. "You didn't fight for me."

"You're right." He said, causing something to break inside of me. "I didn't fight," he added softly. "And you gave up everything just so I could have a stupid job." He said quietly.

"Hey, you gotta bring home the money somehow. We've got the kids to think about." I joked sadly, knowing I could never give that to him. He took my face into his soft gentle hands and made me look at him.

"Look at me, do you see what you've made me? I'm crying for your ass and I don't even care. So tell me, how many people have the honor of saying that?"

"Well how many people have the honor of saying that I did that for them?" He smiled at the ground.

"Oh my god fucking marry me." He said but then his smile disappeared. "Sorry-"

"I would." I said, making his face turn into one of confusion. "I would marry you." I started nodding quickly, kinda like one of those girls that are star struck or some shit and their favorite singer just asked them to do something. "In a fucking heartbeat. I would marry you Kaname Kuran."

He smiled so brightly and a tear slipped down his cheek once again, and then he kissed me. He embraced me and kissed me, me doing the same of course.

"I'm gonna marry you." Kaname said quietly after a few minutes. "And I'm going to take care of you, and love you, and cherish you, and-"

"Make me cry you bastard. Come on, let's help the roses." I said with a smile and I grabbed his hand.

"I thought you were suffering from amnesia early, by the way."

"I wish."

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