Lost Until I Found You

E I G H T||The Things He Does To Me

A month later....
Aija is over once again. her and i became super close. Tray and i's relationship is better i feel like he actually cares now. when i was at my grandmas door step it was a little gift idk what i was but i picked it up along with the other bags i had and headed upstairs with Aija. So she put a couple of outfits in my closet jus incase she spent the night another time and forgot some clothes.

so we were laying on my bed on instagram and we saw there was a party tonight and Aija and i had to attend. im not a party person but thats changing tonight. i got in the shower for 45 minutes got out. then Aija got in while i changed for the party.  im wearing a black lace bra some silky high waisted black pants and black combat boot heels. then put some burgundy lipstick  on with mascara which made my lashes longer causing my blue eyes to pop.

i look cute asf. when i was finished Aija was out the shower and ready to go. She had on a white crop top some boxers under her boyfriend jeans her hair curly like mine. her makeup simple a cute pink lipstick and some pink eyeshadow. we took a couple pics that we posted on da gram.

@BleuCheesin : Two bad bitches at the same damn time😛 @HeChoseAijaa
i grabbed my purse and everything and walked out to my car and as soon we got in our song came on. Stick Talk- Future. i turned the music all the way up getting crunk before we even got there. we pulled up and the party was litt like Litttt everybody was there.

  i parked the car and walked into the party hand in hand with Aija looking like bad bitches. we got in and Freak Hoes future was playing making Aija and i instantly start twerking. we were in the middle of the floor twerking. then i felt someone get behind me but i thought it was Aija until i realized the hands felt bigger so i stopped and stood up to see..... "Brandon?" he was my child hood bestfriend. "yup its me in the flesh. long time no see wassup girl" he pulled me into a hug and it felt so comfy i missed his ass. we were talking at one point but he was a douche bag and hes one of the problems i had in my life.

He pulled away from the embrace jus staring into my eyes before.. he kissed me. his lips were so soft but that normal spark that i used to have that would make me fall in love all over again wasnt there. then i realized this isnt.... "What tf yo?!" Tray? oh shit. i hope he doesnt think anything.

Tray

i walked into this party to come chill wit my baby and i spotted her on the dance floor talking to some guy then they kissed. "What tf yo?!" i said. i was hurting like a mf. "i came in here to be with you and to tell you something but you done fucked shit up. Im done We are done! no more you and i. You was all on me about being with another girl but you kissing on some nigga?" i felt tears coming.

  then i thought about it we dont cry over these hoe- what tf did i jus call her a hoe? she not one of them. im jus mad but im done with her.  im hurting so fucking bad because i really think i love her.

Bleu

im crying. Tray broke up with me Brandon is back to mess my life up again. im looking everywhere for Aija and i cant find her. i go to text her but she texted me saying shes with Dae. great!!  i left to my car balling. i couldnt see. everything blurry. on my way to my house crying hard everything blurry than *BOOM*

"beep... beep... beep... beep... beep.."  i wake up to a bright light in a hospital room. where..ho-..why?... i tried to speak but it hurt like hell. i started to cry. Then i looked to my side to see Aija sleep beside me and then my grandma sitting on the couch. "h-hi n-n-" " its ok baby stop trying. your ok. " she said so calm. " Tr-Tr-Tray?" i asked she shook her head i cried harder. " the doctor said you can leave today if your well" her smile made me happy. she actually cared.
a couple hours later they released me. ive been in the bed ever since. i wouldnt move i had school but i was doing the work at home. i cant stop crying. im hurt. i cant deal rn.

  Aija been  checking on me. i love her man i swear. but shes forcing me to go to school today . so im going. i got out of bed and put on and oversized sweater dress with shorts under and some lipstick and head to school. my car is currently getting fixed so im walking. I finally got to school and went to dreadful first period. i sat down in my seat and tried to pay attention to the class but i kept looking at him. i cant do this.

Lunch

I walked in looking for Aija and i saw her with Dae i cant with them they are so cute and im single... my breathing increased and i dropped my food running out of the cafeteria to the restroom breaking down. i faced away from the door crying harder than ever. arm snake around my torso. it was Aija i needed her. she knew everything she felt me. I cried harder then Aijas presence left as I was hugged from behind. i was hoping and praying he'd care now but it wasnt him it was Marcus.

i havent spoke to him much but i was happy he came. he turned me around and looked down at me. "are u ok?" he looked worried but i dont know what to trust anymore so i looked away until he lifted my chin just like Tray does i cried even harder and he pulled me into a tight hug. i felt like he was there for me and that he would always be a close friend. he let me go and grabbed my hand leading us out of the restroom. we entered the cafeteria all eyes on us. he squeezed my hand for comfort and took me to get my food and then sat me at the lunch table with Aija.

Marcus doesn't have this lunch so he hugged me and went to class. i didnt say anything there wasnt anything to say. i fell for this guy he thought i cheated and he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore. im ugly im not worth his love.

Serenity is the right one for him she'll treat him right and do freaky stuff to him. i didnt touch my food i jus put my head down. i felt arms snake around my waist lifting me up. someone was carrying me bridal style and they sat on the stairs with me on their lap. i smelled the cologne.. the cologne i loved the smell of... the cologne on the person i care about. i cried harder in his chest as i started hitting him.

"baybeh... " he said.

i felt weak at the sound of his voice. i tried to get up and run but i couldn't move.

"babe look im... sorry i assumed Aija told me what happened and i feel really bad im so so so so so so so so sorry im wrong and i was hurt. seeing the girl you love kissing someone else hurts so fucking bad." he said love .. he loves me. no no no. but he hurt me.

" i heard how much i hurt you and it hurt me even more to see my babygirl go through that. i really love you and ion wanna see you hurt. " i looked at the first boy beside my dad to hurt me. he was crying. he was crying for me. i kissed him ever so passionately that i felt more than i should. he picked me up and stood me on my feet. i wanted more. but he stopped me. " hey hey slow down baby. i know you missed me but i want it to be special. " he made me mad so i walked away until he grabbed my hand and twirled me around so i was facing him. he leaned down

" plus you not ready for " he grabbed my hand and put it in his pants and i felt him hard against his boxers. "this.." waterfalls in between my legs was an understatement a tsunami was going on down there. he removed my hand and we kissed until the bell rang dismissing us to next period. the things he does to me....